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Sometimes people make me absolutely sick. I don't even know how to begin explaining what I mean, so I'll just leave it at that.
Lately I've been hoping like crazy that this year will be better than last year. So much happened last year, and most of it I'd like to be able to forget. Maybe this year I'll be able to get better. Maybe my friends will be able to get better too. Maybe I'll do something worthwile. Maybe I'll learn how to be worthwile. Maybe I'll find something good. Maybe I'll be able to detatch from emotional desires. Maybe the world won't make me so sick.
I'm going to make some changes in my life. Hopefully they'll do something. I'm seeing a new doctor tomorrow and am a little nervous about that. Insurance won't let me see the doctor I've been seeing for the past 7 years. I'm going to try to find a job that I like. There's not much pressure, so maybe it'll actually happen.
I'm not sure what I'll do these next three weeks. That winterim class would have kept me busy, but not busy enough for that kind of isolation. I'm a little sad about not taking it, but mostly relieved and glad that I'll be able to stay here where I have friends and family... maybe I'll be able to get better.
Lately I've been hoping like crazy that this year will be better than last year. So much happened last year, and most of it I'd like to be able to forget. Maybe this year I'll be able to get better. Maybe my friends will be able to get better too. Maybe I'll do something worthwile. Maybe I'll learn how to be worthwile. Maybe I'll find something good. Maybe I'll be able to detatch from emotional desires. Maybe the world won't make me so sick.
I'm going to make some changes in my life. Hopefully they'll do something. I'm seeing a new doctor tomorrow and am a little nervous about that. Insurance won't let me see the doctor I've been seeing for the past 7 years. I'm going to try to find a job that I like. There's not much pressure, so maybe it'll actually happen.
I'm not sure what I'll do these next three weeks. That winterim class would have kept me busy, but not busy enough for that kind of isolation. I'm a little sad about not taking it, but mostly relieved and glad that I'll be able to stay here where I have friends and family... maybe I'll be able to get better.