So much...
alot has been going on the past few days... lies, drama, mistakes, and dealing with my depression... but i think things will get better. alot of things have been said about me the past few days and because of those things i have learned who my real friends are. my real friends know me and are going to defend me when my good name (not sure how good it is) is slandered. i have to say paul is the best friend i could ever have. i have said alot of things about him... and yet he still sticks up for me. i just want him to know that i never ment it.
monika is another friend that is true. she is more than a friend. she is all that i have ever wanted in a woman. she is strong, smart, funny, sensative, goal orianted, motivated, full of life, trust worthy, reasonable, stubbor some times (lol which is good when it comes to me), and so damn beautiful (among other things that i feel would not be right to tell people about ;) lol). it has only been around two months of dating and about... i dont know.... i feel lame now... of knowing each other and yet i see all of those things. she means the world to me. the only thing i ask of her is to be there for me and give me strength (which she does like no other) and to see what she truely is worth and how beautiful of a person she is both inside and out.
things have been hard for both of us sinse my little drinking stunt last friday... but some how i know that i will make things right and that the girl i care about will let me come back. i would say she will come back... but i am the one at the drop of a dime that would run back in .000008 seconds. lol.
i have a job interview some time this week at the contry market. job+steven+money=good things to come.
to paul and monika i say i love you. you are the two best friends a man good ever ask for... and best friends never give up... and i will never give up on either of you.
ps.
steven <3s monika :)
monika is another friend that is true. she is more than a friend. she is all that i have ever wanted in a woman. she is strong, smart, funny, sensative, goal orianted, motivated, full of life, trust worthy, reasonable, stubbor some times (lol which is good when it comes to me), and so damn beautiful (among other things that i feel would not be right to tell people about ;) lol). it has only been around two months of dating and about... i dont know.... i feel lame now... of knowing each other and yet i see all of those things. she means the world to me. the only thing i ask of her is to be there for me and give me strength (which she does like no other) and to see what she truely is worth and how beautiful of a person she is both inside and out.
things have been hard for both of us sinse my little drinking stunt last friday... but some how i know that i will make things right and that the girl i care about will let me come back. i would say she will come back... but i am the one at the drop of a dime that would run back in .000008 seconds. lol.
i have a job interview some time this week at the contry market. job+steven+money=good things to come.
to paul and monika i say i love you. you are the two best friends a man good ever ask for... and best friends never give up... and i will never give up on either of you.
ps.
steven <3s monika :)