with a relic in her right hand... (i'll hold your tears as a ransom)
i've come to wonder what will happen when i'm single again. will i not be able to handle it because it would be a completely new thing for me? will i enjoy having time to myself? will i feel lonely?
i suppose i will miss having someone in that spot.... the significant other spot. poeple keep telling me i NEED to be single. I don't necessarily agree. they all think i need to be single to find out who i am. i think i already have been finding out who i am... and i like being with someone else.
i guess the way i look at it is that i feel like i will be missing out if i dont date someone i have feelings for. i choose the trouble and fun and ups and downs instead of always wondering "what if?" i can't imagine choosing being alone over the chance of finding someone i really like.
so when one relationship ends, i inevitably fall for someone else. it could be a week later, it could be a month, it could be longer... but i always find someone.
just because i date someone so quickly after another relationship ended doesnt mean i dont care for the newer girl. i have this odd ability to completely switch all of my emotions to someone else, which leaves the other person with a distant, colder me. sometimes, that's what they want - they've already moved on. other times, it's the worst thing for them - theyre still in love with me. but its already too late. i give everything i have until the one breaking point and that's it. i'm just tired of people pushing me to that edge. i'm sick of having to choose to stay or jump.
so many thoughts... too many. its so hard to think clearly with everything going on, but what would i do without it all? its nice to get some of the things in my head out. its nice to get some things off my chest.
i suppose i will miss having someone in that spot.... the significant other spot. poeple keep telling me i NEED to be single. I don't necessarily agree. they all think i need to be single to find out who i am. i think i already have been finding out who i am... and i like being with someone else.
i guess the way i look at it is that i feel like i will be missing out if i dont date someone i have feelings for. i choose the trouble and fun and ups and downs instead of always wondering "what if?" i can't imagine choosing being alone over the chance of finding someone i really like.
so when one relationship ends, i inevitably fall for someone else. it could be a week later, it could be a month, it could be longer... but i always find someone.
just because i date someone so quickly after another relationship ended doesnt mean i dont care for the newer girl. i have this odd ability to completely switch all of my emotions to someone else, which leaves the other person with a distant, colder me. sometimes, that's what they want - they've already moved on. other times, it's the worst thing for them - theyre still in love with me. but its already too late. i give everything i have until the one breaking point and that's it. i'm just tired of people pushing me to that edge. i'm sick of having to choose to stay or jump.
so many thoughts... too many. its so hard to think clearly with everything going on, but what would i do without it all? its nice to get some of the things in my head out. its nice to get some things off my chest.