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And I'm afraid. Afraid... of what? The future? MY future. I think I've got it all planned out. Study hard, graduate with a Bachelors in Business/Advertising/Finance/xxxxx, get a good job, work hard, make a name for myself. Its all laid out. Its all laid out....
But is that all my future is? A 9-5 job? Sitting behind a desk doing menial routine work day in day out from monday to friday never changing never ending always the same always like that the normal the basic the boredom of it all!!!
I can't think. Beyond it all. Beyond the laid out job, the laid out future. I want to be able to see past it! To be something else! I fear being normal, i fear not being able to dream, i fear the routine 9-5 job, i fear being close in, i fear that i will not find happiness. I fear that i will not soar high enough to fulfill my name and my destiny.
To be driven by my fear. For it is both a driving force and a restricter of my life. Who knows? I might actually realize my dreams....
But is that all my future is? A 9-5 job? Sitting behind a desk doing menial routine work day in day out from monday to friday never changing never ending always the same always like that the normal the basic the boredom of it all!!!
I can't think. Beyond it all. Beyond the laid out job, the laid out future. I want to be able to see past it! To be something else! I fear being normal, i fear not being able to dream, i fear the routine 9-5 job, i fear being close in, i fear that i will not find happiness. I fear that i will not soar high enough to fulfill my name and my destiny.
To be driven by my fear. For it is both a driving force and a restricter of my life. Who knows? I might actually realize my dreams....