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Just got back from seeing my mum in hospital. She'll be fine, thank goodness.
It's silly but sometimes I get the feeling that the reason something like this happens whenever I try to make some steps forward in my life, or even have some fun is because I'm just supposed to be here.
It's completely ridiculous and a selfish outlook considering other people are in pain, but I can't help but have it cross my mind.
The whole burden financially and knowing I'll have to be looking after them both full time for a while, I just want to crawl into bed and not get out for a month. Regardless though, I think I shall avoid being any kind of pessimistic or melancholic for the moment aside from this, and just stick Kate Ceberano singing 'Everything's Alright' on loop.
It's silly but sometimes I get the feeling that the reason something like this happens whenever I try to make some steps forward in my life, or even have some fun is because I'm just supposed to be here.
It's completely ridiculous and a selfish outlook considering other people are in pain, but I can't help but have it cross my mind.
The whole burden financially and knowing I'll have to be looking after them both full time for a while, I just want to crawl into bed and not get out for a month. Regardless though, I think I shall avoid being any kind of pessimistic or melancholic for the moment aside from this, and just stick Kate Ceberano singing 'Everything's Alright' on loop.