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You know.... I think I've come to realize something today... I'm having a little trouble putting it into words really. I feel as though I lack something, something essential to the way this life is supposed to work. All that governs me these days is logic. So often I don't feel anything, I'm so incredibly apathetic about life it's I find myself still here at times. The terrible thing is, from all that i've seen, everything that I've read... I understand the emotions that are supposed to govern my life, and govern the life of most others. I'm frequently offering advice on all sorts of things, things that I've never felt or experienced... and in a way I have no right to offer this advice. Or any advice really. But I can't understand why, for all my knowledge, all my understanding, I still find myself lacking anything positive in my life. The sad thing is today i'm actually feeling much better than I have been for awhile, but I still have no purpose in this life, no goals, no directions, no desires, atleast none of worth. I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life, I simply exist. One thing I have come to understand is... the ability to express oneself, one's emotions and beliefs, be it through art, music, writing, is one of the most important things to humanity. That's what makes art, music, literature, so fascinating, so beautiful. But I've never been one to be able to do this, not really. But I think I've said enough, later.