awww jeez...
so for some reason today i've been really upset...i'm in a good mood, or try to make people, and myself, believe that, but it's no use. i'm so sad. i have to keep focusing on God and not let other things get me down. i know you are all going to want to shoot me, but it's still scott. i mean, things are SO much better with him already, but i still miss him. that's the only thing in my life right now keeping me from being completely happy. i know, i know, what else do i need besides Jesus? but it's still hard. you know, before he ever got involved with me, i never really had a problem with being single. i liked people, sure, but i really didn't mind it. i didnt feel any kind of need to be with someone, because to tell you the truth...i never thought ANYONE would ever like me as more than just the "best friend" type of girl. so then scott came along, and it was the BEST feeling in the world. to have so much attention from a guy... so then when i was with him, i felt PERFECT. if he wasn't over here, or with me, or talking to me, i felt, honestly, incomplete. so now i feel like that ALL the time. and it's horrible. why over a guy? i never had that feeling before, but now i do. and i can't get rid of it. i pray and pray and try to do anything and everything to move on or get my mind off of him, but i always find myself daydreaming and going off into like another world or something...all about him. it sucks. my grades are dropping, because i can't pay attention. i'm always sitting around doing absolutely nothing. and all i do is talk about him and think about him and i KNOW it's bothering people, because it's bothering me as well...
ok then. enough about that. so yesterday, i evangelized to my honors english class. my teacher is jewish, therefore she was very mad. i could tell by her face and the way she treated me. but i don't care. i'm speaking about my God. it was for a book report, and we could pick any book we wanted. so i picked one about God. yeah. if she fails me, i can do something about it. i'll take a stand.
gah so i'm gonna get going soon... tomorrow is the last day of school before Easter break! woo hoo! i'm actually excited...
ok, well later much.
♥ sammi
ok then. enough about that. so yesterday, i evangelized to my honors english class. my teacher is jewish, therefore she was very mad. i could tell by her face and the way she treated me. but i don't care. i'm speaking about my God. it was for a book report, and we could pick any book we wanted. so i picked one about God. yeah. if she fails me, i can do something about it. i'll take a stand.
gah so i'm gonna get going soon... tomorrow is the last day of school before Easter break! woo hoo! i'm actually excited...
ok, well later much.
♥ sammi