"ah jeez"

[axidentlyinluv]

ok. so after talking to dillon, i've decided that no matter what, i'm not going to get anything from scott. most likely, not even a friendship- according to some of his really good friends (and mine), he's done this to many other girls. he's broke up with them for dumb reasons, using dumb excuses, and isn't mature enough to mainain even a friendship afterwards. dillon says that my efforts to be friends are probably going to go unnoticed, and therefore shouldnt try to get anything from him- i should just let him approach me if he wants. it's hard, but i have to do it. the only thing is, is that i feel that God has brought me to know scott, not only to have a great first bf (lol), but to help him with all this shit he's dealing with. i dont want to completely be erased out of his life. i'm not going to completely give up. i have to try to help him. i've prayed and i really think that's why God is doing this and that's why he brought us together. i hope this all works out for the best, because it really is hard. but that's life.

goodnight everyone.
♥ sammi