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I feel like i just keep fucking up. Like ive wasted so much time on a lost cause. Like i gave myself completely to someone who just threw me aside for an easy fuck. I feel like ive been used. I feel like ive been dropped and disposed of. I feel alone. I feel like throwing up every time i see her. I feel like fucking killing the other girl. Im glad i didnt see them last night or I probably would have.
But i kind of feel like a hypocrite. Part of me feels bad... the other bigger part says go for it. She makes you happy. She doesnt lie to you. She makes your heart jump...Shes worth it. I just wish she was here right now :\ This is gonna be a long week leading up til my birthday. Nelly will be here. finally <3 and TumTum and the girls will be back. WOO!
PS i got an apartment today. Hopefully i can find a real job.
Time to grow up. *gag*
But i kind of feel like a hypocrite. Part of me feels bad... the other bigger part says go for it. She makes you happy. She doesnt lie to you. She makes your heart jump...Shes worth it. I just wish she was here right now :\ This is gonna be a long week leading up til my birthday. Nelly will be here. finally <3 and TumTum and the girls will be back. WOO!
PS i got an apartment today. Hopefully i can find a real job.
Time to grow up. *gag*