anon is anon

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[ANONYMOUS TIME]

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ANOYMOUSLY

❶ TELL ME YOUR CRUSH.

OR

❷ ONE THING YOU WANT TO GET OFF YOUR CHEST/TALK ABOUT/RANT ABOUT ETC

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[anonymous]

U-um... I have a crush on a guy at work. He's only one year older. He's is the most isolated person I've ever known. He's cold, jaded, cruel, rude, and a complete asshole. He was never nice to me (or anyone) at first, but I always gave him the benefit of the doubt because for some strange reason, I was attracted to him. He told me secrets he never revealed to even the closest of people to him. I felt like I mattered in some form, and that enough made me elated and wanted to be close to him.

Months pasted and we got really close as friends, and of course my feelings developed. Confession spilled and in return, I got a heartbreak. It was actually the second only heartbreak in my life that hurt so bad. Anyway, sometime or another, I told him I was completely over him (obviously, I lied) and everything would return to normal. Months passed again and now recently, he's been fantastic. He holds me randomly, buys me food, tickles me, pep talks to me, drives me home, and does everything to make me smile.

The problem is, I'm trying to move on and be over him considering that I'm technically seeing someone else, but I can't if he's doing stupid things like that. Of course, I don't want him to not do those things either.

I feel really torn. And that he's just toying with my feelings like every other male out there has already done.