even satan was once an angel.

[axegal]

so i found out that the ex had told a friend we broke up because i was 'cheating' and 'sleeping around' when were were together. suffice to say i was indignant. for one, if i were, i would never have kept it from her because i'm really bad at keeping secrets. that's the way i'm wired. sometimes i'm too honest for my own good. that said, i had been nothing but faithful during that time and that is one thing i can look anyone in the eye and say i've always held fast to that principle. i may be flirtatious by nature when i'm single, but in a relationship, i am completely committed. trust has always ranked sacred in my values and this extends to how i regard my partner.

so it is truly disappointing to realise that in all those years, that was only a facade, mere lip service to possibly assure me and keep me on a string. it's really been an oversight on my part to think that there was complete and pure trust. either that or i've been absolutely blindsided by such artifice.

i can't even begin to fathom the extent of lies some are willing to fabricate. it's vile enough that they're slandering you, it's even more contemptible that they'd do it to your circle of friends. what kind of degenerate behaviour is that?

anyway, it's the final push i need to put this behind me. i really wanted to be gracious about the whole thing but this latest discovery only serves to drive that final nail in the coffin (or should i say stake).