If insanity is the business, the business is good.
Someone called me timid this weekend. They're right. I'm a mouse in my own little world. I'm very quiet until you get to know me, and then I never shut up. I can hide my moods - but usually I don't. I lie, cheat, and deceive.
This does not mean that I don't take risks I shouldn't, and get my heart smooshed on occasion.
Yesterday was such an occasion. I put more conscious, dedicated effort into the last few months than I ever have with a person before. But I can't force people to love me. I can't force an attraction that's just not there. That being the case, it's time to play ostrich for a while and embrace the madness again until I have recovered.
The beer may or may not help.