Mar 22, 2012 02:11
Being Fearless
Two weeks ago I was walking around the west end with Lourdes putting up fliers for our movie event. We were talking and I told her that I teased my hair up and threw it into a messy bun with a flower. I accentuated the fact that I purposefully did my hair that way by putting the flower in it. It's sort of a statement in itself. I told her I am going to be fearless from now on. Fearless ...and bold.
A few seconds later this woman in her 60's wearing her hair in an amazing blond beehive, and skirt suit walked by. She was bold and fearless too! I loved it!
So today, and for the past few days I've actually been having fearless days. (You know how sometimes you just get a feeling and you run with it?) I guess it primarily has to do with fashion, but, as I've always known, fashion often reflects to the outside who you are on the inside. It's like Abu Kessem's slippers and all of the visual rituals done in ancient cultures. If you make a statement on the outside, people will more likely notice that something is different on the inside too.
Today I bought two items at TJ Maxx- one is a big hat for the beach that I really love. It's classic/luxurious/sophisticated. It's not one of their scarily priced designer labels or anything, it was 24.99 --compare to 25.00 :). But I just love it! I hope to match it up with a black swim suit and a black sheer wrap coverup. It makes me feel incognito. And like a celebrity! I am glad I found it because I cannot WAIT to relax on the beach and I really wanted the perfect sun hat! The other thing I bought was a navy blue and off-white drapey sweater piece that will go over an offwhite tank with my off-white dress pants. I'm wearing that tomorrow cause it's supposed to be 85 degrees! On March 22nd! It's officially SPRING!
So while I was trying on my new white pants combination I realized that the outfit would look best with bangs. I was fearless. I didn't even think about it! I just... sectioned out my hair and cut them! In like one blow. I made them extra long to allow for fixing and what not. I made one very minor adjustment where I cut into the ends at an angle and made them a tiny bit shorter. I think they look ok!
Part of being bold is being confident in who you are and what you have to offer. Sometimes for me, accentuated visual statements express my confidence in a way that kind of does the work for me. It says "I am so sure of myself, I don't care if everyone is noticing my school bus yellow pants". I might feel that way tomorrow, but who cares. It's like... always having my nails done, or wearing lipstick or having my hair teased. It's creating a memorable persona. And I think I have that... I want to keep that to myself and preserve that. But I also want to look as creative and confident as I actually am.
I need to return to my life beyond the norm. I need to stay bold, be happy and stand out. I need to regain my confidence that I will get what I want and need for myself! This is just a part of that transformation.
I can't wait for 85 degree weather!!!