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i can't believe its all over. the musical. after four wonerful years, i finally and reluctantly got my rose. I wasn't teary eyed receiving it though i did become so during my little speech to the cast thanking them for helping me become the person i am today. then when i hugged mia it all came out. and when i went on stage for the last time to sing out my last high c note, i trembled and almost cried thinking "yes i'm falling in love with some one" meaning this feeling right here and now. then it was over faster than it began and i realized i was feet away from where i stood for "What I did for Love" and noted the perfect cyclical nature of that. It was not even ironic. i just knew i would end up there again. I guess it just doesn't feel like it is over. Maybe it's not. maybe i won't graduate this year and have to re-do senior year. that would be amazing. haha. well when all that was over my wonderful amazing boyfriend, one Mr. Harry Shipps, gave me a dozen red roses, and my mom gave me a doezen pink. I gave her a hug and she offered to take my roses home for me, and i told her to wait and bring home my senior rose too and i lost it right there; i was crying in front of everyone in the middle of the hall on my mother's shoulder. and i'm crying right now. i don't want it to be over. i love everyone i have met. It's like knowing 7 years of people- from the seniors in a chorus line to the freshmen in this show.
and i can't get over how well it actually came out. i was so worried about it, but now it is definietly my favorite show. I feel like i finally got a chance to shine. my moment of glory on that little high school stage. no one overshadowing me, just letting it all out. the first night i sang because most of my family was there. the next night i sang for the judges, but the last night, i sang for myself and only myself. i think that was my best night too. i just told myself that i had to go out there and let it all loose, let everything come out naturally and with ease. and absorb the moment and the feeling. i had a blast, and i think it showed.
i came in with A Chorus Line, which was amazing to have been a part of, and i left with Thoroughly Modern Millie, which was shining and glorious. i'm a grateful and proud to have been a part of it. and i'm sad to leave it all behind.
and i can't get over how well it actually came out. i was so worried about it, but now it is definietly my favorite show. I feel like i finally got a chance to shine. my moment of glory on that little high school stage. no one overshadowing me, just letting it all out. the first night i sang because most of my family was there. the next night i sang for the judges, but the last night, i sang for myself and only myself. i think that was my best night too. i just told myself that i had to go out there and let it all loose, let everything come out naturally and with ease. and absorb the moment and the feeling. i had a blast, and i think it showed.
i came in with A Chorus Line, which was amazing to have been a part of, and i left with Thoroughly Modern Millie, which was shining and glorious. i'm a grateful and proud to have been a part of it. and i'm sad to leave it all behind.