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I really wanna turn my life around. I do.
I thought, tonight was gonna be the same. I'm gonna lie in bed, have one of those reflective meetings with myself and plan my day for tomorrow, or later. But tonight, it made me sit up on my bed. Somehow I felt different. I've decided, I'm gonna quit my job, look for another but we can think about that later. I'm gonna vacuum clean this room. I'm gonna go eyebrow threading cos I look like a mess.
Byt you know what, that's not gonna be enough. Mmm now I don't know how to solve this. I really wanna be in charge of my own life but I can't seem to do it. Am I too young to make decisions? I'm almost 20 and I can't even think straight. My mum says I think too much. That's useful and at the same time can be very disastrous. I'm a lot of things. Paranoid is number one. I'm even paranoid of making friends. Is it because I'm insecure? Cos people tell me about other people being insecure many times. 'she's like that cos she's insecure..' Do I put up a front to cover it? Well, I guess its gonna take time for me to find myself. Now if I'll just fall asleep so that I can save this for my future therapy sessions.
I thought, tonight was gonna be the same. I'm gonna lie in bed, have one of those reflective meetings with myself and plan my day for tomorrow, or later. But tonight, it made me sit up on my bed. Somehow I felt different. I've decided, I'm gonna quit my job, look for another but we can think about that later. I'm gonna vacuum clean this room. I'm gonna go eyebrow threading cos I look like a mess.
Byt you know what, that's not gonna be enough. Mmm now I don't know how to solve this. I really wanna be in charge of my own life but I can't seem to do it. Am I too young to make decisions? I'm almost 20 and I can't even think straight. My mum says I think too much. That's useful and at the same time can be very disastrous. I'm a lot of things. Paranoid is number one. I'm even paranoid of making friends. Is it because I'm insecure? Cos people tell me about other people being insecure many times. 'she's like that cos she's insecure..' Do I put up a front to cover it? Well, I guess its gonna take time for me to find myself. Now if I'll just fall asleep so that I can save this for my future therapy sessions.