hi folks...
Its been awhile...
The past few months have brought so much change, beauty, confusion, joy and fear into my life. I've been thru graduation, a summer full of weddings and watching dear friends go off to live new lives. Some of them, I was fully excited about and others i had reservations with but had to put them behind me and be giving for the sake of love. I learned a lot about being a better friend this summer. I learned a lot about trusting God with people. And I think I'm learning again slowly what it is to trust God with myself again...after a long period of apathy. I havent felt good about my faith in a long time, i've been down right bitter about it sometimes. But things are happening that are nothing short of miracles and i'm starting to really see again.
I'm planning my own wedding now...and we're down to 4months which is crazy and exciting and scary all at once. There is just so much that goes into these things, weddings. Sometimes I want to throw up my hands and tell all the people involved, my mom, aunts, the cake lady the flower lady the reception hall owners, the church staff.....i want to tell them to just lighten up! I mean, whats the big deal? The wedding party gets all dressed up, we take some photos, have some fun & Matt and I say the vows - I dont expect everything to go perfect. I just want to have fun and celebrate with the people i love.
Well, lots to do before this Sunday ends.....love!
The past few months have brought so much change, beauty, confusion, joy and fear into my life. I've been thru graduation, a summer full of weddings and watching dear friends go off to live new lives. Some of them, I was fully excited about and others i had reservations with but had to put them behind me and be giving for the sake of love. I learned a lot about being a better friend this summer. I learned a lot about trusting God with people. And I think I'm learning again slowly what it is to trust God with myself again...after a long period of apathy. I havent felt good about my faith in a long time, i've been down right bitter about it sometimes. But things are happening that are nothing short of miracles and i'm starting to really see again.
I'm planning my own wedding now...and we're down to 4months which is crazy and exciting and scary all at once. There is just so much that goes into these things, weddings. Sometimes I want to throw up my hands and tell all the people involved, my mom, aunts, the cake lady the flower lady the reception hall owners, the church staff.....i want to tell them to just lighten up! I mean, whats the big deal? The wedding party gets all dressed up, we take some photos, have some fun & Matt and I say the vows - I dont expect everything to go perfect. I just want to have fun and celebrate with the people i love.
Well, lots to do before this Sunday ends.....love!