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sometimes I get so restless. I wish I could learn to just be patient and content. I lose my patience so quickly & I let myself just stew in my bad moods. There are days when I just don't want to cheer up or try to "keep swimming" (haha nemo!). There are days when I want to just be sad. I think it comes from a past of never ever letting people see me sad or upset. I didn't often feel like I was allowed to be down. and yet anymore I feel like I take the liberty to feel down more than I should. or maybe I only take it with certain people & then its too much of a burden on them. ack. who knows. All I know is I need to pray more and complain less. Because there is a reason I am in school and in bloomington. there are parts of me that never want this college thing to end. and there are parts of me that feel so trapped here finanically and with classes bogging me down. this is all just venting. I must say talking to my dear sarah c. was helpful today. i'm so lucky to have such amazing friends from IU. where would I be without my chicago girls?
anyway, tomorrow will be a great day. working for a short 2hrs and then Oliver Winery with Grace & Sarah M. & maybe Michael, Ben, & Tom (if we decide to let boys go!) And later that night I have a hot date ;-) with my fiance (!!! still funny to say that) and then maybe getting together with everyone for some settlers or something.
I'm outta here for now!
anyway, tomorrow will be a great day. working for a short 2hrs and then Oliver Winery with Grace & Sarah M. & maybe Michael, Ben, & Tom (if we decide to let boys go!) And later that night I have a hot date ;-) with my fiance (!!! still funny to say that) and then maybe getting together with everyone for some settlers or something.
I'm outta here for now!