:ok this whole thing bitches about money so dont read it if you dont want to cuz its long, thanks
so i worked today with shaun ALONE and did not realize that until last nite. hmmm...no comment except for some how i got the word stupid written across my forehead in marker! god i swear we just go in one big circle with whatever we have as a "friendship"...breaking benjamin show tomorrow is canceled so no tito and melish sniff sniff. instead i have to go to the dentist and get insurance for my car. oh yeah ...russ, the cute delivery driver, brother ben started work today. i am in love. not really he is too preppy for me but he is cute and listens to breaking benjamin and shinedown...and i was like damn u rock. he is 18 too...my mom was ilke u dont have to tell me the fact he is 18 twenty times kc. yeah so i got really pissed today cause i have been getting checks for $666 since like hmmm...febuary and in febuary i got like $2000..so my mom keeps tellin me all this money is in a bank account for me so i havent been freakin out about school or anything like that. well so today she shows me the back book and there is less than $3000 in there and i was like ummm thats not right i should have at least $3000 no at least $4000 and she was like no this is what u have. and than she gave me some bs about how she took money out for the eye doctor...which was only $300. and i got really upset cause $1500 of that is for school this year...and i have like not alot of money left. and i know she has been using this money as her god damn car payments. i am telling ya as many checks as i have gotton which i know what i have gotton...i mean i got one check for $2000 and at least 4 more for $666 so its like wtf i am not stupid. but i am all stressed out cause i work at crappy job, i just took out loans for school, need to go buy all my school shit, and she hasnt helped me with anything this last year. everything i have payed for..she keeps tellin me i owe her $20. i mean damn its cool if she wants me to be independent but come on i just turned 18 and she helps out my 24 yr old sister with college and me...she is not even gettin me school supplies. :breaths: so yeah..i. dont see how i am going to make it. car insurance is like $600 every 6 months and than school...and god damn it i plan on saving up money to get out of this place!!!! i might cancel my cell phone..that would be an extra $50 every month so it would help. and i love my cds and cloths so yeah...i feel like a broke college student and i havent even started yet. :breaths: sorry to bitch bout money but i get stressed out when i dont have alot...and the reason i get stressed out is i want to get out of this place after school is over. i am terrified i will stay here. but whatever...ok i am shutting up now.