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So, as Ish predicted, Hugo and I are back together. Of course the little magic bubble of happiness has burst and things are very different now. I don't necessarily feel the same way when I look at him, and I'm on guard. Since we've gotten back together, he has told me he loves me approximately 10 times. I've been very careful to not say it back.
Last night on the phone, he said it again. All I can say is "mmm-hmmm." Him: "Don't you have something to say to me?" That certainly sounds familiar. I told him that he knows I love him and he: "Well, sometimes it's nice to hear it." No shit! So I said "Yeah...I know how that feels." Kind of a jab...but not really.
Then he told me I'm the only thing in his life right now that isn't a problem. Which is a little bit funny to me...a week ago, he was saying the complete opposite.
I told him that if this doesn't extend past Ensenada, meh. I love him more than I'm letting on, of course. But now I'm protecting myself from his emotional instability and immaturity. And I feel like I have to play games, which I HATE so much...the beauty of what we had before is that I didn't have to play games.
It's a very weird time in our relationship.
And I love my new Jemain icon. I want to just marry him and get it over with.
Last night on the phone, he said it again. All I can say is "mmm-hmmm." Him: "Don't you have something to say to me?" That certainly sounds familiar. I told him that he knows I love him and he: "Well, sometimes it's nice to hear it." No shit! So I said "Yeah...I know how that feels." Kind of a jab...but not really.
Then he told me I'm the only thing in his life right now that isn't a problem. Which is a little bit funny to me...a week ago, he was saying the complete opposite.
I told him that if this doesn't extend past Ensenada, meh. I love him more than I'm letting on, of course. But now I'm protecting myself from his emotional instability and immaturity. And I feel like I have to play games, which I HATE so much...the beauty of what we had before is that I didn't have to play games.
It's a very weird time in our relationship.
And I love my new Jemain icon. I want to just marry him and get it over with.