on love
For the first time in months, I had a dream of someone I was once in love with but screwed up by not taking the chance and I was living in the goddamn pits. It doesn't hurt as much as it used to thinking of their name, but I'm desperate for that feeling again, so desperate I'm afraid I'll settle for anything. I don't want to settle!! Ever!! Shoot me if I do, and force me to go buy eleven cats so I can keep looking for that one true love and in that exact order. My parents settled, even though they love each other now. They think I should stop roving and settle. Some people I know settled. I won't!!...........but I probably will, too, if to just stop feeling so lonely anymore.