Finally . .
It's been about three years since I last updated.
I went back and read all my old entries and I'm sad to say I don't think I'm
as amusing anymore. Plus I try my best not to be such a potty mouth. Sheeeshhh.
I haven't had a full nights rest in over a year and I wouldn't have it any other way.
Although staying focused at work gets kinda hard when you sleep less than six hours at night
and wake up at least three times. I'm actually ready to do it all over again times two.
In all honesty my boy is miracle from GOD.(and a lot of precise planing but more God than anything). Mark and I had been trying to get pregnant since November of 2008 and . . . Nothing. I probably should have gone to the gynecologist sooner but I was scared to get bad news or discouraging odds about me being able to get pregnant.
I finally decided to go to the doctor in August of 2010 and my doctor was amazing about helping me get to where I needed to be. Month after month passed and nothing and it just seemed like everyone around me was getting pregnant by accident or with no trouble at all.
I cried. and then I cried some more.
and then I cried a lot more. but I also prayed in between my crying.
I felt like the most broken human in the world.
with each month that pasted the thought of ever carrying a child inside of me faded.
and then Finally in March of 2011 it happened my little bean began to grown inside me.
GOD heard my prayers and saw how broken I felt and he put his hands on me and blessed me with my little miracle.
Now I'm at it again . . . trying for baby number two. I'm going to try my best not be as weak this time. My faith is strong God knows when the time is best. So far so good, I'm in good spirits and I'm trying to stay positive. I now know that it's not something that is going to happen over night . . . I know it might take months but I know it WILL HAPPEN.
I'm in a good place right now. I have a Great husband, a beautiful son, an amazing family and the perfect best friends in the world. Life is GOOD. <3
I went back and read all my old entries and I'm sad to say I don't think I'm
as amusing anymore. Plus I try my best not to be such a potty mouth. Sheeeshhh.
I haven't had a full nights rest in over a year and I wouldn't have it any other way.
Although staying focused at work gets kinda hard when you sleep less than six hours at night
and wake up at least three times. I'm actually ready to do it all over again times two.
In all honesty my boy is miracle from GOD.(and a lot of precise planing but more God than anything). Mark and I had been trying to get pregnant since November of 2008 and . . . Nothing. I probably should have gone to the gynecologist sooner but I was scared to get bad news or discouraging odds about me being able to get pregnant.
I finally decided to go to the doctor in August of 2010 and my doctor was amazing about helping me get to where I needed to be. Month after month passed and nothing and it just seemed like everyone around me was getting pregnant by accident or with no trouble at all.
I cried. and then I cried some more.
and then I cried a lot more. but I also prayed in between my crying.
I felt like the most broken human in the world.
with each month that pasted the thought of ever carrying a child inside of me faded.
and then Finally in March of 2011 it happened my little bean began to grown inside me.
GOD heard my prayers and saw how broken I felt and he put his hands on me and blessed me with my little miracle.
Now I'm at it again . . . trying for baby number two. I'm going to try my best not be as weak this time. My faith is strong God knows when the time is best. So far so good, I'm in good spirits and I'm trying to stay positive. I now know that it's not something that is going to happen over night . . . I know it might take months but I know it WILL HAPPEN.
I'm in a good place right now. I have a Great husband, a beautiful son, an amazing family and the perfect best friends in the world. Life is GOOD. <3