fic: Fix
Title: Fix
Author: awkwardllama
Rating: PG-13
Length: 913
Disclaimer: I don’t own anything but the story.
Summary: It hurts. Sequel to Quiet.
They have never really been just friends. From the moment they met, there had been something between them.
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It was like the first day of school all over again. She’s the new girl who has been thrust into a class full of people who were already all friends.
There are the first few awkward moments where no one knows what to say to her except Hello. And then Cory cracks a joke and Dianna thanks God for Canadians.
Everyone is sweet and humble and oh so talented. When she hears Amber singing, she claps wildly and cannot stop smiling. It’s so embarrassing. Amber waves off the praise with a smile and a laugh. She says, “Just wait until you hear Lea.”
As if on cue, the door bursts open. A tiny, frazzled brunette runs in spouting apologies and laments on LA traffic. Her hair is pulled up into a messy bun, and her too big sunglasses are slipping down her face.
Dianna has never seen anything so gorgeous.
They finally take their seats, and Ryan starts to talk. They go around the table, each of them saying what they thought of the pilot and what it means to them. Lea goes last. Dianna hangs onto every word.
When they break for lunch, Cory introduces her to Lea. Her heart pounds and her hands shake.
Lea touches her arm, and the trembling subsides. And that’s when Dianna knows that this girl is going to change her life.
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And she does. Soon, Dianna’s entire life revolves around Glee and Lea Michele Sarfati.
They are together all day, every day. She falls hard and fast, and it scares her. But Lea will smile her Lea smile, and all the fear drains away.
That Lea can affect her so much, with so little, scares her even more.
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She has heard tons of crap about Lea. That she’s a diva and a bitch. Most of her friends and family have too.
So when they hear about her relationship with Lea, they are reasonably worried. They worry that a loud, brash New Yorker isn’t right for quiet, shy Dianna.
Dianna reassures them that Lea isn’t like that and she wouldn’t hurt her.
Thinking back, maybe she should’ve listened to them.
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“Di? Please say something.” The silence is stifling.
“Don’t call me that. You’re not allowed to call me that.” Dianna fists her hands into her hair. “How could you do this to me?”
Lea presses a hand to Dianna’s shoulder. “I really wish it didn’t have to be like this. I didn’t mean to-“
Dianna flinches and pulls away. “Didn’t mean to what? Cheat? If you really ever loved me, you wouldn’t have. I guess I know where you stand.”
“How can you say that? You know how much I…” Hesitation. “Loved you.”
A glass shatters against the wall. Hazel eyes burn black. “If you had actually loved me, you wouldn’t have spread your legs for him like some two-bit whore.”
The words hurt worse than a slap to the face. Lea’s eyes fill with tears. She squeezes them shut. “Calm down Dianna. I know that you don’t mean that.”
“How do you know? Why do I have to be sweet and innocent all of the time? Why can’t I be angry for once? It’s not like you don’t deserve it. I can never let it out.” She screams in frustration, and kicks at a chair. Even as she ruins the trailer, her eyes plead at Lea to leave, please, before she gets hurt. I can’t hurt you.
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Two days later, there’s a beautiful bouquet of flowers in Lea’s now separate trailer. There’s a small white card tucked within the flowers.
I’m sorry. I didn’t mean any of it. ~D
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Dianna has never felt like this before. Like someone ripped out her heart, smashed it to pieces, then tried sticking the fragments back into her chest. It’s the most painful thing she has ever felt.
Is it possible to die from a broken heart?
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People tell her it’s okay to hate Lea, and it would be completely normal if she did. Tons of people hate their exes.
She doesn’t get it. How can she possibly hate the one person she loves more than anything? How can someone go from being everything to being nothing?
Lea could never be nothing. She’ll always mean everything.
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They try to start over.
But it hurts. It hurts to even look at Lea. She feels that phantom pain in the place her heart used to be. She wouldn’t survive if she had to go through something like that again. She just can’t.
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Soon, she realizes that Lea has a way of getting her to do things she thought she couldn’t do. Lea gets under her skin and into the cracks of her splintered soul. She fills her up. Dianna falls in love again. But she still can’t forgive her.
The intense pain fades to a dull ache, and she finds herself thinking, Will loving Lea always hurt?
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One random day, something inside of her clicks. It feels like a pressure in her chest has been relieved and a huge weight has been lifted off her shoulders. There are no words to really explain how, but she realizes that she doesn’t hurt anymore.
Huh.
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The next day, she lifts Lea up onto the piano, and kisses her.
She’s happy.
Author: awkwardllama
Rating: PG-13
Length: 913
Disclaimer: I don’t own anything but the story.
Summary: It hurts. Sequel to Quiet.
They have never really been just friends. From the moment they met, there had been something between them.
-------------------------------
It was like the first day of school all over again. She’s the new girl who has been thrust into a class full of people who were already all friends.
There are the first few awkward moments where no one knows what to say to her except Hello. And then Cory cracks a joke and Dianna thanks God for Canadians.
Everyone is sweet and humble and oh so talented. When she hears Amber singing, she claps wildly and cannot stop smiling. It’s so embarrassing. Amber waves off the praise with a smile and a laugh. She says, “Just wait until you hear Lea.”
As if on cue, the door bursts open. A tiny, frazzled brunette runs in spouting apologies and laments on LA traffic. Her hair is pulled up into a messy bun, and her too big sunglasses are slipping down her face.
Dianna has never seen anything so gorgeous.
They finally take their seats, and Ryan starts to talk. They go around the table, each of them saying what they thought of the pilot and what it means to them. Lea goes last. Dianna hangs onto every word.
When they break for lunch, Cory introduces her to Lea. Her heart pounds and her hands shake.
Lea touches her arm, and the trembling subsides. And that’s when Dianna knows that this girl is going to change her life.
-------------------------------
And she does. Soon, Dianna’s entire life revolves around Glee and Lea Michele Sarfati.
They are together all day, every day. She falls hard and fast, and it scares her. But Lea will smile her Lea smile, and all the fear drains away.
That Lea can affect her so much, with so little, scares her even more.
-------------------------------
She has heard tons of crap about Lea. That she’s a diva and a bitch. Most of her friends and family have too.
So when they hear about her relationship with Lea, they are reasonably worried. They worry that a loud, brash New Yorker isn’t right for quiet, shy Dianna.
Dianna reassures them that Lea isn’t like that and she wouldn’t hurt her.
Thinking back, maybe she should’ve listened to them.
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“Di? Please say something.” The silence is stifling.
“Don’t call me that. You’re not allowed to call me that.” Dianna fists her hands into her hair. “How could you do this to me?”
Lea presses a hand to Dianna’s shoulder. “I really wish it didn’t have to be like this. I didn’t mean to-“
Dianna flinches and pulls away. “Didn’t mean to what? Cheat? If you really ever loved me, you wouldn’t have. I guess I know where you stand.”
“How can you say that? You know how much I…” Hesitation. “Loved you.”
A glass shatters against the wall. Hazel eyes burn black. “If you had actually loved me, you wouldn’t have spread your legs for him like some two-bit whore.”
The words hurt worse than a slap to the face. Lea’s eyes fill with tears. She squeezes them shut. “Calm down Dianna. I know that you don’t mean that.”
“How do you know? Why do I have to be sweet and innocent all of the time? Why can’t I be angry for once? It’s not like you don’t deserve it. I can never let it out.” She screams in frustration, and kicks at a chair. Even as she ruins the trailer, her eyes plead at Lea to leave, please, before she gets hurt. I can’t hurt you.
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Two days later, there’s a beautiful bouquet of flowers in Lea’s now separate trailer. There’s a small white card tucked within the flowers.
I’m sorry. I didn’t mean any of it. ~D
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Dianna has never felt like this before. Like someone ripped out her heart, smashed it to pieces, then tried sticking the fragments back into her chest. It’s the most painful thing she has ever felt.
Is it possible to die from a broken heart?
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People tell her it’s okay to hate Lea, and it would be completely normal if she did. Tons of people hate their exes.
She doesn’t get it. How can she possibly hate the one person she loves more than anything? How can someone go from being everything to being nothing?
Lea could never be nothing. She’ll always mean everything.
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They try to start over.
But it hurts. It hurts to even look at Lea. She feels that phantom pain in the place her heart used to be. She wouldn’t survive if she had to go through something like that again. She just can’t.
-------------------------------
Soon, she realizes that Lea has a way of getting her to do things she thought she couldn’t do. Lea gets under her skin and into the cracks of her splintered soul. She fills her up. Dianna falls in love again. But she still can’t forgive her.
The intense pain fades to a dull ache, and she finds herself thinking, Will loving Lea always hurt?
-------------------------------
One random day, something inside of her clicks. It feels like a pressure in her chest has been relieved and a huge weight has been lifted off her shoulders. There are no words to really explain how, but she realizes that she doesn’t hurt anymore.
Huh.
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The next day, she lifts Lea up onto the piano, and kisses her.
She’s happy.