Scabies or I hate my life times a billion
So I have scabies. Anyone can get it regardless of class, cleanliness, or what have you. I am pretty sure I got it from the gym. Usually you get it from sleeping in other peoples beds or you know sexy times or sharing towels and other laundry items. You really can't get it from handshakes or hugs. Let me say that this is probably one of the worst things that has ever happened to me. IT TOTALLY BLOWS!
First of all I sleep super shitty at night. I am waking up at 3 or 4 in the morning with intense itching and then I try to fall back to sleep. I got diagnosed on Wednesday and got the medicine which is supposed to kill the scabies in one go, although you will still itch for like 2 to 4 weeks. FUCKING AWESOME. FUCK YOU MEDICAL SCIENCE. You would think in all the infinite wisdom of medicine they would have developed a cure that gets rid of the scabies and the itch at the same time. Because now I have to play the waiting game and see if I am cured. LET ME REITERATE THAT IT TOTALLY BLOWS. I WOULD NOT WISH THIS ON ANYONE, EVEN MY WORST ENEMY, WHICH I DON"T HAVE RIGHT NOW UNLESS YOU COUNT SCABIES.
I think worst of all that my self esteem is at an all time low. I feel like the leper of the house. I don't really want to hang out with anyone because I don't want to get them infected/ I don't think people want to hang out with me because of it. Also I have been feeling down on myself because I feel all unattractive and shit and this certainly does not help. I don't want to put forth an effort into meeting anyone right now because I don't want to get close to anyone and have to explain that I have scabies/ I don't want to get them infected.
Also I just hate everything, and this puts the cherry on the top of the cake. :(
First of all I sleep super shitty at night. I am waking up at 3 or 4 in the morning with intense itching and then I try to fall back to sleep. I got diagnosed on Wednesday and got the medicine which is supposed to kill the scabies in one go, although you will still itch for like 2 to 4 weeks. FUCKING AWESOME. FUCK YOU MEDICAL SCIENCE. You would think in all the infinite wisdom of medicine they would have developed a cure that gets rid of the scabies and the itch at the same time. Because now I have to play the waiting game and see if I am cured. LET ME REITERATE THAT IT TOTALLY BLOWS. I WOULD NOT WISH THIS ON ANYONE, EVEN MY WORST ENEMY, WHICH I DON"T HAVE RIGHT NOW UNLESS YOU COUNT SCABIES.
I think worst of all that my self esteem is at an all time low. I feel like the leper of the house. I don't really want to hang out with anyone because I don't want to get them infected/ I don't think people want to hang out with me because of it. Also I have been feeling down on myself because I feel all unattractive and shit and this certainly does not help. I don't want to put forth an effort into meeting anyone right now because I don't want to get close to anyone and have to explain that I have scabies/ I don't want to get them infected.
Also I just hate everything, and this puts the cherry on the top of the cake. :(