i know i made this entry already.... just to remember.
"OKAY GOAL:
by my sixteenth birthday, november 11th.
i need to... hm. what kind of goal do i want to set by then. do i want to overestimate, and beat myself up when i DONT reach it, or underestimate for safe keeping.
okay, so. underestimation:
i need to be 110, by the end of august. this is july 7th. that gives me... almost two months to loose five pounds, on anthonys scale. then, ill have lost... 13 pounds, all together.
20 pounds, gone. lets say by the end of september.
123-20= 103.
if i am 103 by the end of september THEN I MEET MY GOAL.
if i can maintain that for a little while... just because its going to get rocky and hard, and make it to 100, or EVEN 99 by november 11th....
holy fuck me.
i will be so happy.
i really feel like i can do it, too. all summer ive felt that way.
tomorrow i get to pretend i ate that rice in the fridge.
really, i should be exercizing right now.
so, okay. 23 pounds gone by november. MAYBE 24, total, that is.
15 left to go (16 if im doing 99).
fifteen, in 127 days.
god, thats alot of days. if i dont do this im the biggest loser on the planet. that is SO much more than enough time.
i have to loose .11811023622047244094488... and so on pounds a day.
POINT ONE. point one pounds.
what a fucking loser.
if i just got to 103 that would be nice too. i think that is a nice weight.
110, 103, 100, 99, 97, 93.
those are my pin points.
93 seems a BIT extreme... but i like it. if i got there... oh man id be so amazing id just have to stop.
what will i do when i reach them?
buy myself something. idk what, but something.
ill decide when i get there. just spontaneously get WHATEVER i want."
by my sixteenth birthday, november 11th.
i need to... hm. what kind of goal do i want to set by then. do i want to overestimate, and beat myself up when i DONT reach it, or underestimate for safe keeping.
okay, so. underestimation:
i need to be 110, by the end of august. this is july 7th. that gives me... almost two months to loose five pounds, on anthonys scale. then, ill have lost... 13 pounds, all together.
20 pounds, gone. lets say by the end of september.
123-20= 103.
if i am 103 by the end of september THEN I MEET MY GOAL.
if i can maintain that for a little while... just because its going to get rocky and hard, and make it to 100, or EVEN 99 by november 11th....
holy fuck me.
i will be so happy.
i really feel like i can do it, too. all summer ive felt that way.
tomorrow i get to pretend i ate that rice in the fridge.
really, i should be exercizing right now.
so, okay. 23 pounds gone by november. MAYBE 24, total, that is.
15 left to go (16 if im doing 99).
fifteen, in 127 days.
god, thats alot of days. if i dont do this im the biggest loser on the planet. that is SO much more than enough time.
i have to loose .11811023622047244094488... and so on pounds a day.
POINT ONE. point one pounds.
what a fucking loser.
if i just got to 103 that would be nice too. i think that is a nice weight.
110, 103, 100, 99, 97, 93.
those are my pin points.
93 seems a BIT extreme... but i like it. if i got there... oh man id be so amazing id just have to stop.
what will i do when i reach them?
buy myself something. idk what, but something.
ill decide when i get there. just spontaneously get WHATEVER i want."