Oh so lost....
went to grandmas...lets just say we've had better trips....
drama is driving me crazy. along with all the other stuff on my mind...its hard to contain it, but i cant talk to anyone...so i guess containing it is what im gonna have to do. im upset that i didnt get to go to maryland, i really wish i did. but mom said it was "just too late". i think it would have made me feel better, being able to see amanda...being able to talk and have fun like we used to. god i miss that, i would trade so much to have her here. im so close to tears right now...im afraid if somebody else says something wrong i'll break down, its crazy. i cant even write...its like i dont even know how to explain half of what im feeling...but what i can explain i dont want to...i dont think im able too. so i guess thats that...
i'll be around if anyone wants to hang out before summer ends, not that anyone will. but its an option.
later all.
drama is driving me crazy. along with all the other stuff on my mind...its hard to contain it, but i cant talk to anyone...so i guess containing it is what im gonna have to do. im upset that i didnt get to go to maryland, i really wish i did. but mom said it was "just too late". i think it would have made me feel better, being able to see amanda...being able to talk and have fun like we used to. god i miss that, i would trade so much to have her here. im so close to tears right now...im afraid if somebody else says something wrong i'll break down, its crazy. i cant even write...its like i dont even know how to explain half of what im feeling...but what i can explain i dont want to...i dont think im able too. so i guess thats that...
i'll be around if anyone wants to hang out before summer ends, not that anyone will. but its an option.
later all.