Jun 04, 2004 01:30
Sometimes I get tired of feeling numb. Today was one of those days. I went to the library to try to inspire myself. It just made me feel worse. I just felt lazier than I am for not having read all of the books that I've wanted to and for not writing the books I have yet to write. I think I'll minimize the time I spend in bed. I need to go to boot camp.
I talked to a homeless man earlier this week. He noticed I was acting awkward when my ex strolled along. I would have fallen to ashes if it weren't for him. He said, "Aw girl, you know you're better than him and everything will be just FINE."
I wish he were with me always to reassure me with those exact words.
I hope I'll be fine.
-J