i wish that i was as invisible as you make me feel
i wish i wasn't so fucking easy. I wish i had more self-esteem so that i wouldn't have to be easy. Fuck all of you for judging me about this too. if i thought i was not fat..and not ugly then i wouldn't have to look for guys to feel accepted. the i wouldn't give too much of myself and get hurt. so i give up drinking. that way i won't do anyhting stupid and regret what i do, and who i am. because my whole life seems to be living from my mistakes lately. and its starting to get to me. its hard living thikning ur whole life is a mistake. i guess i should have figure it out by now after all these times getting hurt, that there's nothing casual about sex and it complicates things. life was just too good, i should have realized it would just get shitty. so heres to many weeks of anxiety and depression....ooo goody!
I wanna hang onto something
That won't break away or fall apart
Like the pieces of my heart