'learning how to focus' dream
i had layed down for a bit because my stomach was bothering me, but i was doing some pondering meditations at the same time. I dose off, and I'm aware i'm dreaming for the most part..the main theme of it was people moving in and out of this place i was living, i think it was kind of like an apartment place, only it was more like a mansion that rented out parts..someone was always moving in or out, moving boxes around, blah blah...i had no part in the actually moving part, but it was going on around me,,
I'm just watching things happen, nothing really involved is going on..the insubstantial stuff is fuzzy, so it's all jumping around. At one point someone was purposly trying to wake me up, i HEARD a voice going "hey hey hey wake up hey", whoever it was seemed like they were at the bottom of my bed, as i'm waking up i see flashes of these symbols, like someone was trying to get me to see them before I woke myself up. When I wake up there is no one there, physical or otherwise, I was annoyed, then passed directly out again and went back in to where i was. At this point a young girl, like..12-14ish was moving in with her family into a place where I had been living at one point. She was moving stuff around in her room and I went to say hi and that i wanted to look in her closet just incase i had left something behind. We both look around, and there is alot of random shit around the room that didnt belong to eighter of us. I find my mom's guitar in there, only it looked like it was FUCKed up..like someone had taken a knife to it or something...
I sit on her bed and we were talking about random stuff while i'm looking over the guitar, I dont remember exactly what we were talking about, but I started listing elements, and I stop after three of them because I notice something off about the guitar, that the fretboard was made of some kind of leather instead of wood, and it had a slice in it so the leather was peeling back...Then I hear a voice again..a female voice..and there was a spirit type person/shape/whatnot there...i couldnt make out what they looked like exactly other then female...
She seemed very...judgemental, like she thought I didnt know what I was talking about. She said something like.."did you just say only 3 elements?" I dot very defencive and stood up and faced off with her. I got the feeling she was there to judge me and I was confident in myself and what I was capable of. I told her "no, there are six elements." She then looked almost surprized and smirked and was all "ahaa.."
She starts fading, becoming more like a wispy cloud and started to pull away towards something on a shelf that was full of stuff. She tells me that i need to find an alchemist, and gave me a name, and started telling me how to go about finding him. He voice was fading, and i was trying to follow the mist so i could hear her. She had faded away but i could still hear here, so i was looking for whatever portal she had dissapeared through. I remember looking for something made of copper, or had copper in/on it, but she was gone before i did. .
So I'm all like, what the crap?
So I set off in search of whomever. Things get fuzzy here, because things kept happening to distract me, something was trying to get me to actually start arbitrarily dreaming and not complete what I was trying to do. Eventually i pull away from all that and find a bunch of symbols that looked like the symbols and circles from the begining of my dream, only i have NO IDEA what they say or mean. they were all over this large room, could have been a basement or a cave, only everything was white, what i was seeing kept shifting. I kept following them, and eventually I found a box that had four compartments. I remember needles and vials and rubber tubes in one, pens and pencils and brushes in another...cant remember the others..
stuff gets fuzzy here again, i remember there being a formal type party going on, and things were trying to distract me again...eventually I find myself on something like and open trolly, or a tram, going off somewhere, and this woman was there and she grabbed my leggs trying to pull me off. She was very strange, she didnt look like a puppet or a doll, but thats the feeling i got from her. Her eyes were empty and she just kept smiling. She manages to pull me off and I end up laying on the ground, she had my head in her lap and her hands around my head and it felt like she was turning my head. I start forcing myself awake again, because I thought she was trying to snap my neck or something like that. I manage to force myself awake, and thats when I stayed awake.
Thinking back i'm not sure if she was trying to snap my neck or not, because she wasnt really using enough pressure to do so, just enough so i would notice, but that could mean she was hesitaing, teasing me, not strong enough, or maybe just teasing me till she DID try and snap it... i dunno
I'm just watching things happen, nothing really involved is going on..the insubstantial stuff is fuzzy, so it's all jumping around. At one point someone was purposly trying to wake me up, i HEARD a voice going "hey hey hey wake up hey", whoever it was seemed like they were at the bottom of my bed, as i'm waking up i see flashes of these symbols, like someone was trying to get me to see them before I woke myself up. When I wake up there is no one there, physical or otherwise, I was annoyed, then passed directly out again and went back in to where i was. At this point a young girl, like..12-14ish was moving in with her family into a place where I had been living at one point. She was moving stuff around in her room and I went to say hi and that i wanted to look in her closet just incase i had left something behind. We both look around, and there is alot of random shit around the room that didnt belong to eighter of us. I find my mom's guitar in there, only it looked like it was FUCKed up..like someone had taken a knife to it or something...
I sit on her bed and we were talking about random stuff while i'm looking over the guitar, I dont remember exactly what we were talking about, but I started listing elements, and I stop after three of them because I notice something off about the guitar, that the fretboard was made of some kind of leather instead of wood, and it had a slice in it so the leather was peeling back...Then I hear a voice again..a female voice..and there was a spirit type person/shape/whatnot there...i couldnt make out what they looked like exactly other then female...
She seemed very...judgemental, like she thought I didnt know what I was talking about. She said something like.."did you just say only 3 elements?" I dot very defencive and stood up and faced off with her. I got the feeling she was there to judge me and I was confident in myself and what I was capable of. I told her "no, there are six elements." She then looked almost surprized and smirked and was all "ahaa.."
She starts fading, becoming more like a wispy cloud and started to pull away towards something on a shelf that was full of stuff. She tells me that i need to find an alchemist, and gave me a name, and started telling me how to go about finding him. He voice was fading, and i was trying to follow the mist so i could hear her. She had faded away but i could still hear here, so i was looking for whatever portal she had dissapeared through. I remember looking for something made of copper, or had copper in/on it, but she was gone before i did. .
So I'm all like, what the crap?
So I set off in search of whomever. Things get fuzzy here, because things kept happening to distract me, something was trying to get me to actually start arbitrarily dreaming and not complete what I was trying to do. Eventually i pull away from all that and find a bunch of symbols that looked like the symbols and circles from the begining of my dream, only i have NO IDEA what they say or mean. they were all over this large room, could have been a basement or a cave, only everything was white, what i was seeing kept shifting. I kept following them, and eventually I found a box that had four compartments. I remember needles and vials and rubber tubes in one, pens and pencils and brushes in another...cant remember the others..
stuff gets fuzzy here again, i remember there being a formal type party going on, and things were trying to distract me again...eventually I find myself on something like and open trolly, or a tram, going off somewhere, and this woman was there and she grabbed my leggs trying to pull me off. She was very strange, she didnt look like a puppet or a doll, but thats the feeling i got from her. Her eyes were empty and she just kept smiling. She manages to pull me off and I end up laying on the ground, she had my head in her lap and her hands around my head and it felt like she was turning my head. I start forcing myself awake again, because I thought she was trying to snap my neck or something like that. I manage to force myself awake, and thats when I stayed awake.
Thinking back i'm not sure if she was trying to snap my neck or not, because she wasnt really using enough pressure to do so, just enough so i would notice, but that could mean she was hesitaing, teasing me, not strong enough, or maybe just teasing me till she DID try and snap it... i dunno