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im getting so upset.
all my "friends" dont even bother to talk to me anymore.
especially the ones i thought were my true friends.
jess and me are seperating...i have no fucking clue as to why. we never talk really that much. not like before. i have to call her now all the time. she NEVER calls me anymore. and when i call her shes out or sleeping. we dont even practice anymore. we actually did hang out the other day, i called her of course. it was fun like old times...but then she left and has she called? nope.
i never really talk to erica. i never talk to jd much. or kyle, or shannon, or resa, or anyone. even andy has been hanging out with other ppl alot more. so i dunno. and sandy and me too. well we still talk on line and we try to talk on the phone but we're busy or something. i dunno. this SUcKs.
strangely enough i hung out with jaani and becca and matt and colin. most random ppl., cept matt and becca.
it was wierd because of stuff...........but anyway
today i hung out with my brother at the mall.
that is living proof that i have no friends.
my brother ditched me too as a matter of fact. then i hung out alone and bought some stuff. a sweet hat, a couple games and a cd. (underoath :):):))
thats all. i was gonna get a haircut but by the time i went to do that it was too late. so yea.
FUCK BOREDOM !!!
a plus is that i will most likely be getting a job at spencer's because im good friends with the manager and ppl who work their. so thier is my effing silver lining of the week.
oh and ellen hates me again :) she says i hate my self, yea i do , but why not hate myself. right? its MY self and i'll hate it if i please. if that renders me unable to be in relationships then so/be/it... sorry...wait that doeantsound like a self loather's answer...ah well.
life is a box of chocolates lately.......
/discusting/
all my "friends" dont even bother to talk to me anymore.
especially the ones i thought were my true friends.
jess and me are seperating...i have no fucking clue as to why. we never talk really that much. not like before. i have to call her now all the time. she NEVER calls me anymore. and when i call her shes out or sleeping. we dont even practice anymore. we actually did hang out the other day, i called her of course. it was fun like old times...but then she left and has she called? nope.
i never really talk to erica. i never talk to jd much. or kyle, or shannon, or resa, or anyone. even andy has been hanging out with other ppl alot more. so i dunno. and sandy and me too. well we still talk on line and we try to talk on the phone but we're busy or something. i dunno. this SUcKs.
strangely enough i hung out with jaani and becca and matt and colin. most random ppl., cept matt and becca.
it was wierd because of stuff...........but anyway
today i hung out with my brother at the mall.
that is living proof that i have no friends.
my brother ditched me too as a matter of fact. then i hung out alone and bought some stuff. a sweet hat, a couple games and a cd. (underoath :):):))
thats all. i was gonna get a haircut but by the time i went to do that it was too late. so yea.
FUCK BOREDOM !!!
a plus is that i will most likely be getting a job at spencer's because im good friends with the manager and ppl who work their. so thier is my effing silver lining of the week.
oh and ellen hates me again :) she says i hate my self, yea i do , but why not hate myself. right? its MY self and i'll hate it if i please. if that renders me unable to be in relationships then so/be/it... sorry...wait that doeantsound like a self loather's answer...ah well.
life is a box of chocolates lately.......
/discusting/