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[awilldestroyed]

ill try to look myself in the eye
but i know i wont stare long
because i dont need to see too deep

ill never know who i am
because your grip on my hand
crushing me from inside out

pulsing stars and galaxies
had the chance to be free
but now nothing will ever make it

the death of autumn
is in the air
is this too dramatic for you?

let me break it all down

i am not a human
not flesh and blood,
im a filthy dog,
made up of mud

i eat and eat and take and take
im out to kill and smash and break

i have no feelings for you or them
ive only got myself till the very end

the planet ripples in my hand
and im the only one in my plan
you were there but i cut you out
i dont know why but i cut you out

i have you all in my palm
im shaking with power
i cant stay calm

im like a cat
whilst you are my mouse
i love to play with you
before i bring you down

im a fake and a liar and you cant even see
the darkness glooming right inside of me

i feed off your feelings
to keep me alive
i used you and used you
without every blinking an eye

you thought you were special
but you were all the same
i get off on this twisted
sadistic game

there are no winners
theres nothing to gain
but i continue to rape you
as long as my hunger remains

im empty as can be
and you have to fill me up
but once i stoop up
i just couldnt get enough

so i hide behind smiles
that break through concrete
and think im alright
you think life is sweet

you CANT SEE THE CLAWS
SO YOU CANT RUN AWAY
I CANT SAY IM SORRY
BECAUSE I WOULDNT MEAN IT ANYWAY

I HATE WHO I AM
YET YOU STILL LOVE ME MORE
IM MADE UP OF LIES
AND CUTS SCRATCHES AND SORES

WHY DO YOU LOVE ME
AND WHY CANT YOU SEE
THE EVIL THE HATRED THE USELESSNESS IN ME?!?!?!?!?

HOW MANY TIMES WILL YOU BE KNOCKED TO YOUR KNEES
I AM FILTHY I AM PUTRID I AM A DISEASE!!
I AM NOTHING BUT HEART WRENCH AND SCARS-TO-BE
AND STILL YOU WRAP YOUR NAIVE HANDS AROUND ME!!!

I DESERVE TO BE DEAD
YET IM SHOWERED WITH CARE
IM STUCK IN A HELL
AND I CANT GO no where

you'll never understand