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It's really hard when you know what you want, but there are so many things in the way it makes you think that it's not worth it anymore. I love what I'm doing these days and this past weekend made me that more excited about it - but there is so much bullshit in the air it makes me really upset. So I'm kind of lost now. Which sucks. I hate this feeling, but what I hate even more is feeling like I don't have a say in anything.
I need to read more. Read for fun. Read for myself. I'd also like to start writing more. The only writing for myself I really do is this.
I am so broke it's not even funny. I have to buy a new microwave since I broke the one I have right now.
If my iron wasn't so damn low, you better believe I'd be selling some plasma.
Despite the daily annoyances however, I'm doing fairly well. I'm healthy. I have wonderful sisters who stand with me through everything. I have best friends in EL and AA who I get to see Friday.
They're really what is keeping me going right now. Not anything else. Just them.
I want Lansing people in my life again so bad it brings me tears thinking about it.
I need to read more. Read for fun. Read for myself. I'd also like to start writing more. The only writing for myself I really do is this.
I am so broke it's not even funny. I have to buy a new microwave since I broke the one I have right now.
If my iron wasn't so damn low, you better believe I'd be selling some plasma.
Despite the daily annoyances however, I'm doing fairly well. I'm healthy. I have wonderful sisters who stand with me through everything. I have best friends in EL and AA who I get to see Friday.
They're really what is keeping me going right now. Not anything else. Just them.
I want Lansing people in my life again so bad it brings me tears thinking about it.