Avengers (2012): "Waking Up (4/6)" (Gen, Pre-Clint/Natasha)
Title: Waking Up (4/6)
Author/Artist: Koren M. (cybermathwitch)
Disclaimer: Not mine. If they were, there'd already be a Black Widow/Hawkeye movie.
Pairing: Gen (pre-Clint/Natasha)
Rating: R
Warnings: adult themes, mental instability
Spoilers: none
Type: Completed
Word Count: 228
Summary: Everyone starts somewhere. Everyone has a beginning. Everyone is made up of their experiences. Everyone wakes up. Part of "The Weight of Us": the moments leading up to "Shot in the Dark".
Author's Notes:
Many many thanks to kadollan for the beta on the final version of this thing, and thanks to lar_laughs, SidheRa, and anuna_81 for looking over earlier versions of this material.
RE: WARNINGS - PLEASE READ: These are moments from Clint and Natasha's past, the early memories (or lack there-of) that lead up to Shot in the Dark. As you can imagine, bad things happened. Nothing is terribly graphic (no more graphic than things that happened in Shot in the Dark, anyway, I don't think) - but please use your best judgement when reading. If you have any questions about the warnings, please leave me a comment or shoot me an email (I'm cybermathwitch(at)gmail(dot)com) and I'll do my best to answer them.
Warnings are specific to the chapter they're listed on, and while each chapter is a piece of the puzzle, there's not a linear narrative, so each chapter makes sense on it's own if you feel you need or want to skip one.
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
For awhile, she had existed in a sort of a fugue state. Everything felt normal, except there was an echo, like a song she couldn't quite place, or a dream she could only half remember.
She didn't think it was a very pleasant dream.
She went through her days by rote, through practices and fittings, dress rehearsals and performances. Occasionally she would go out with other members of the company after a show, but more often she'd gone back to her hotel room alone, and tried to banish the pressure and ache from the inside of her mind with aspirin and tea. Some nights, she was successful, and found herself drifting into a restless sleep. Other nights, she had dreams of pain and blood, violence and fire, and found herself waking with a scream caught in her throat.
There were days she thought she was losing her mind, bit by precious bit. Once she started finding herself in places other than her room, she'd been sure of it. The lobby wasn't so bad, she reasoned, but one time she'd woken up to find herself in an alleyway, huddled in nightwear covered by a heavy coat, with blood drying on her hands and feet.
Sometime late in the summer, Natasha Romanov, coryphee fell apart, and Natalia Romanova woke up and remembered who she really was.
Author/Artist: Koren M. (cybermathwitch)
Disclaimer: Not mine. If they were, there'd already be a Black Widow/Hawkeye movie.
Pairing: Gen (pre-Clint/Natasha)
Rating: R
Warnings: adult themes, mental instability
Spoilers: none
Type: Completed
Word Count: 228
Summary: Everyone starts somewhere. Everyone has a beginning. Everyone is made up of their experiences. Everyone wakes up. Part of "The Weight of Us": the moments leading up to "Shot in the Dark".
Author's Notes:
Many many thanks to kadollan for the beta on the final version of this thing, and thanks to lar_laughs, SidheRa, and anuna_81 for looking over earlier versions of this material.
RE: WARNINGS - PLEASE READ: These are moments from Clint and Natasha's past, the early memories (or lack there-of) that lead up to Shot in the Dark. As you can imagine, bad things happened. Nothing is terribly graphic (no more graphic than things that happened in Shot in the Dark, anyway, I don't think) - but please use your best judgement when reading. If you have any questions about the warnings, please leave me a comment or shoot me an email (I'm cybermathwitch(at)gmail(dot)com) and I'll do my best to answer them.
Warnings are specific to the chapter they're listed on, and while each chapter is a piece of the puzzle, there's not a linear narrative, so each chapter makes sense on it's own if you feel you need or want to skip one.
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
For awhile, she had existed in a sort of a fugue state. Everything felt normal, except there was an echo, like a song she couldn't quite place, or a dream she could only half remember.
She didn't think it was a very pleasant dream.
She went through her days by rote, through practices and fittings, dress rehearsals and performances. Occasionally she would go out with other members of the company after a show, but more often she'd gone back to her hotel room alone, and tried to banish the pressure and ache from the inside of her mind with aspirin and tea. Some nights, she was successful, and found herself drifting into a restless sleep. Other nights, she had dreams of pain and blood, violence and fire, and found herself waking with a scream caught in her throat.
There were days she thought she was losing her mind, bit by precious bit. Once she started finding herself in places other than her room, she'd been sure of it. The lobby wasn't so bad, she reasoned, but one time she'd woken up to find herself in an alleyway, huddled in nightwear covered by a heavy coat, with blood drying on her hands and feet.
Sometime late in the summer, Natasha Romanov, coryphee fell apart, and Natalia Romanova woke up and remembered who she really was.