hate.
HATE. (written on wed. sept. 22, 2004.)
DEPRESSION. hard math. takes time. slit wrists. ms bennett's a BITCH. need a job. forced to sit for hour w fucking dad. HELL. wants to talk. blow him off. hmwk done. tori likes @$*!. i dont. write back. cry. argue w dad. fucker. bacon hates. im sad. i wanna die. now. kill myself. suicidal. homocidal. homecoming dance. not going. hate everyone. want to die. need. job. need cain. need bacon. need help. wanna get drunk. wanna smoke. wanna fuck. wanna love. dont wanna hate. dont wanna cry. need help. cant stop. cant stop crying. cant stop hating. need money. running away. FUCKING HATE. messy room. ugly faCe. horrible personality. gross hair. yellow teeth. fat. white. short. UGLY. HATE. need death. didnt answer. stop eating. fat pig. need help. starve to death. water only. neck & back sore. legs throb.
ps
during hurricane ivan i was "sleeping" and overheard my mom talkin to my bros. the power had gone out and the boys asked if i should be checked on. acting all concerned or some kinda shit. well my moms response was as follows quoted straight from her.. "believe you me, if there's neone in this house that can take care of themselves its her." i feel like she dont thnk i need her nemore. wed. sept. 15, 2004.
DEPRESSION. hard math. takes time. slit wrists. ms bennett's a BITCH. need a job. forced to sit for hour w fucking dad. HELL. wants to talk. blow him off. hmwk done. tori likes @$*!. i dont. write back. cry. argue w dad. fucker. bacon hates. im sad. i wanna die. now. kill myself. suicidal. homocidal. homecoming dance. not going. hate everyone. want to die. need. job. need cain. need bacon. need help. wanna get drunk. wanna smoke. wanna fuck. wanna love. dont wanna hate. dont wanna cry. need help. cant stop. cant stop crying. cant stop hating. need money. running away. FUCKING HATE. messy room. ugly faCe. horrible personality. gross hair. yellow teeth. fat. white. short. UGLY. HATE. need death. didnt answer. stop eating. fat pig. need help. starve to death. water only. neck & back sore. legs throb.
ps
during hurricane ivan i was "sleeping" and overheard my mom talkin to my bros. the power had gone out and the boys asked if i should be checked on. acting all concerned or some kinda shit. well my moms response was as follows quoted straight from her.. "believe you me, if there's neone in this house that can take care of themselves its her." i feel like she dont thnk i need her nemore. wed. sept. 15, 2004.