A Most Vulnerable Situation | OPEN, Streets and Chaos Theatre
A lot of what had been going on the past few days troubled Ramona. The fact that she still hadn't met a Scott from her time, yet she managed to find not one, but two that were from the past, did very little to ease her mind. And yet, what Gideon told her a few days ago came to mind: 'If Scott ran off on you, that's his problem, not yours.' What if he would've given up on her? It wouldn't be like him, but she wouldn't be able to blame him, either.
This led to her wondering how things would've been if she just hadn't run away all those times. It seemed to be the only thing she was good at. Well, that and being a bitch to people. Can't forget that... Not that she could run away from her fate here, and neither could anyone else. She was, for all she could do here, a trapped mouse. Toronto being the mousetrap.
Thus, it was time for some self-reflection. It was really all she could do, and she didn't even know of many 'sane' people here yet. The sane ones being the non-'oh this town is so normal' people. One Roxie, two Gideons, two Scotts, three other Ramonas, a Todd... Envy... possibly more that she didn't know about.
She used this time to walk through the streets yet again, looking for something to do. Something more than this crappy self-reflection that she just didn't want to go through with. She didn't want to change herself to stay the same, she liked changing just to be like that. And then change again later. It was like she was changing everything about her, back and forth and to others.
But later, she decided, later she might head to Chaos Theatre herself, and see what it was like there. She had almost gone there before, anyway. Might as well check it out sooner or later...
This led to her wondering how things would've been if she just hadn't run away all those times. It seemed to be the only thing she was good at. Well, that and being a bitch to people. Can't forget that... Not that she could run away from her fate here, and neither could anyone else. She was, for all she could do here, a trapped mouse. Toronto being the mousetrap.
Thus, it was time for some self-reflection. It was really all she could do, and she didn't even know of many 'sane' people here yet. The sane ones being the non-'oh this town is so normal' people. One Roxie, two Gideons, two Scotts, three other Ramonas, a Todd... Envy... possibly more that she didn't know about.
She used this time to walk through the streets yet again, looking for something to do. Something more than this crappy self-reflection that she just didn't want to go through with. She didn't want to change herself to stay the same, she liked changing just to be like that. And then change again later. It was like she was changing everything about her, back and forth and to others.
But later, she decided, later she might head to Chaos Theatre herself, and see what it was like there. She had almost gone there before, anyway. Might as well check it out sooner or later...