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Oct 21, 2010 00:34



1. are you ready to answer 103 questions?
I sure hope so.

2. whose car were you in last other than family?
uh. Kody's. I think.

3. who is the last person to send you a message on facebook?
I don't even remember.

4. how is single life for you?
I haven't been single in a very long time.

5. what colour is your keyboard?
White.

6. what are you allergic to?
Metal. And I'm thinking toothpaste. It always gives me crazy cotton mouth and my lips get all pink. Very weird.

7. do you have a nickname?
Does 'nerd' count?

8. have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
I don't think so, no.

9. where are your best friends right now?
Scattered across the city.

10. could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
I'm pretty sure that I could manage that.

11. have you ever fallen asleep in someone’s arms?
Yeap.

12. is there someone you will never forget?
Most definitely.

13. is there anyone that you care more about than yourself?
Yes.

14. would you pay someone to kill the last person who hurt you most?
No. If I wanted to kill that person then I would do it myself. :P

15. who was the last person you took a picture with?
My friends.

16. have you ever regretted letting someone go?
Yep.

17. if you walk by a mirror, do you check yourself out in it?
Blah. No.

18. where is the last person of the opposite sex you kissed?
The living room.

19. what will you be doing in 20 min?
Probably answering more surveys.

20. have you ever gotten alcohol poisoning?
Nope.

21. do you want to see someone at this very moment?
Yes.

22. last person you talked to on the phone?
Sean.

23. do you do your own laundry?
Yes.
24. is there a guy that knows everything or mostly everything about you?
Yes.
25. did you ever lose a best friend?
Yes.
26. what colour is your toothbrush?
Blue and white.
27. how many televisions are in your house?
Two. One upstairs and one down.
28. name a song you know all the lyrics to?
There's quite a few.
29. what camera do you use?
Canon Powershot SX130 IS.
30. what is the nearest pink item?
A weird, horrifyingly creepy puppy hanging off the mirror to my left.
31. did you ever have a near death experience?
Hah, yeah.
32. name someone with the same birthday as you.
Susanne.
33. would it hurt seeing the person you last kissed, kissing someone else?
I'd rather just not think about that.
34. who’s birthday is coming up?
Jordans.
35. did the last person to hurt you, ever apologise?
No.
36. do you know your sibling’s middle name?
Dude, I barely know her, let alone her middle name.
37. do you trust all your friends?
Yeah. I do.
38. have you ever started a fight?
Yes.
39. have you ever been bullied?
Tons.
40. have you ever been a bully?
No. I've been a bitch, but not a bully.
41. where are you right now?
The office/spare room.
42. where would you find penguins?
In cold places?
43. how do you feel about your hair right now?
I like it. I can't stop playing with it.
44. do you wish you could fly sometimes?
Sometimes.
45. how well do you know the last male you texted?
I think I'm getting to know him very, very well.
46. would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
There'd be no point.
47. are you happy with life at the moment?
Holy crap, no.
48. have you ever met someone who is amazing?
Yes.
49. are your nails painted?
Yes.
50. does seeing couples in love make you mad?
Uh. No?
51. does someone love you?
Yes.
52. remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?
uh. Yes?
53. if your best friend liked your ex, what would you do?
Not care.
54. do you want any tattoos?
Not yet.
55. have you ever slept in a car?
Yes.
56. are you a shy person?
Very much so.
57. do you trust anyone right now?
Yeah.
58. would you rather go to a party or go out of town?
Good god, out of town. No doubt.
59. is there anyone you can’t stop thinking about?
Yes.
60. how is life?
Suffocating.
61. is anyone mad at you?
Maybe?

Cut off that survey there, couldn't possibly answer any more of the stupid questions.

I haven't written in so long. Not in my journals. Not on here. Not anywhere. I feel as if I've completely lost the ability to write. I sit down with my notebook and pen and I can't even think straight. Even now, it's taking me forever to type this out. My fingers refuse to move across the keyboard and spell out anything meaningful. All that comes out is crap. Totally uninspired crap. I can't even stand what I've written before. I read through my poems and it all just sucks.

Nothing comes out right anymore. I used to be able to use words, twist them to my advantage and explain myself to the world. I can still feel them under my skin though. Digging into my bones and bruising my skin.

Shit. This sucks.
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