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It's senior year. Most overused phrase: "When does senior year get easy?"
I’m thinking....never!
Work/school/homework/board/volleyball/boy/friends/social life/making appearances/sleep? Not in that order. But sleep is last priority, and I’m not getting enough of it… lol
I've been accepted to Michigan & MSU. The decision is weighing on me, it’s crushing me even if I’m not thinking about it directly. I was excited for .2 seconds after being accepted to UofM before stressing about where to go. Rather than, “where do I want to attend for the next four years of school?” I’m thinking about it more as, “where do I want to spend the next four years of my life?”
I've learned a lot about my friends this year... their problems that I've failed to see in the past. I feel horrible for not noticing. How could I not see something like that? Am I that self-absorbed? Maybe. It’s sick. And it makes me sick to my stomach, literally. I might be a awful friend. How could you not have come to me sooner? How can you feel that way? AND WHY CAN’T I CHANGE YOUR MIND ABOUT IT? I won’t give up, because that’s not what I do. I’ll stick by your side, no matter what, but I need a little effort on your part too.
Other friends I have seen the best and worst of. Some of my friends are stronger than I have ever known, and I respect them so much. SO MUCH. I just want to be here for them. I never want to lose them next year- I’m afraid of that. I revere their hard work, independence, strength, personality…. Others are very immature and I have lost a lot of respect for them.. a person’s reaction to a situation can tell a lot about their personality. The ability to get through tough situations is hard, but try to put it into perspective. It’s not that hard. But we live&learn. I’m learning a lot.
Volleyball tryouts are over, the team is solid, I’m excited for the season. I made captain, something that is extremely important to me, and I’m so so happy about it. I’ve got a boyfriend…so that’s cool, I wish I wasn’t afraid of feelings, that would be nice…hah
I’m having a really hard time with the college issue.
UofM- next-to Ivy League status, easy to get a job with a diploma, could get away from people I don’t want to be with anymore. Then again it is college, I don’t have to be friends with anyone I don’t want to. I will kill myself over getting good grades, not be the smartest, VERY competitive, but maybe I’m completely wrong.
MSU- I might fit in better, I can be one of the best, I’ll be more competitive with myself, but it’s not the same name as UofM, not as respected, GREAT journalism program, but what if I change my mind about majors and having a journalism program isn’t even important to me?!? Ahhh do you see?
If I got into Michigan, am I selling myself short going to State? Or am I doing what is right for me and what will make me happier?????
ps. i miss everyone at school, and if you're coming home for thanksgiving it means we're hanging out. because i miss you all terribly terribly.
Sounds like a Starbucks talk is in order. Oh, wait, that's everyday. Love. Laura.
I’m thinking....never!
Work/school/homework/board/volleyball/boy/friends/social life/making appearances/sleep? Not in that order. But sleep is last priority, and I’m not getting enough of it… lol
I've been accepted to Michigan & MSU. The decision is weighing on me, it’s crushing me even if I’m not thinking about it directly. I was excited for .2 seconds after being accepted to UofM before stressing about where to go. Rather than, “where do I want to attend for the next four years of school?” I’m thinking about it more as, “where do I want to spend the next four years of my life?”
I've learned a lot about my friends this year... their problems that I've failed to see in the past. I feel horrible for not noticing. How could I not see something like that? Am I that self-absorbed? Maybe. It’s sick. And it makes me sick to my stomach, literally. I might be a awful friend. How could you not have come to me sooner? How can you feel that way? AND WHY CAN’T I CHANGE YOUR MIND ABOUT IT? I won’t give up, because that’s not what I do. I’ll stick by your side, no matter what, but I need a little effort on your part too.
Other friends I have seen the best and worst of. Some of my friends are stronger than I have ever known, and I respect them so much. SO MUCH. I just want to be here for them. I never want to lose them next year- I’m afraid of that. I revere their hard work, independence, strength, personality…. Others are very immature and I have lost a lot of respect for them.. a person’s reaction to a situation can tell a lot about their personality. The ability to get through tough situations is hard, but try to put it into perspective. It’s not that hard. But we live&learn. I’m learning a lot.
Volleyball tryouts are over, the team is solid, I’m excited for the season. I made captain, something that is extremely important to me, and I’m so so happy about it. I’ve got a boyfriend…so that’s cool, I wish I wasn’t afraid of feelings, that would be nice…hah
I’m having a really hard time with the college issue.
UofM- next-to Ivy League status, easy to get a job with a diploma, could get away from people I don’t want to be with anymore. Then again it is college, I don’t have to be friends with anyone I don’t want to. I will kill myself over getting good grades, not be the smartest, VERY competitive, but maybe I’m completely wrong.
MSU- I might fit in better, I can be one of the best, I’ll be more competitive with myself, but it’s not the same name as UofM, not as respected, GREAT journalism program, but what if I change my mind about majors and having a journalism program isn’t even important to me?!? Ahhh do you see?
If I got into Michigan, am I selling myself short going to State? Or am I doing what is right for me and what will make me happier?????
ps. i miss everyone at school, and if you're coming home for thanksgiving it means we're hanging out. because i miss you all terribly terribly.
Sounds like a Starbucks talk is in order. Oh, wait, that's everyday. Love. Laura.