my Shadow
My beloved Shadow passed away on Thursday.
She had been diagnosed with cancer a little while back. I knew we were on bonus time, she was 14 and the vet and I agreed to do what we could to make her comfortable for as long as we could. I had several weeks longer with her while the meds made her feel better, and I appreciated every moment. This last week she took a turn for the worse, the cancer had spread and she was no longer comfortable. Thursday am I lay next to her and held her face in my hands. I told her I loved her, everything was going to be fine and she was such a good girl. I cuddled her close as I said goodbye. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do but it was what was best for Shadow.
The vet was so kind. We discussed the unconditional love Shadow gave. She cried too and hugged me and made that devastating moment a little easier.
I buried Shadow in the yard under a big tree. When it stops raining, I'm going to get some flowers to plant there.
I still haven't wrapped my head around it that she is gone. I look for her then I remember. I miss her so much. Buddy and the kitties miss her too.
Shadow was such a strong, loving presence and a sweet soul. I felt like Shadow was an Angel here with me. From when she was a puppy and chewing up garden hoses(g) Hey, we left it on the ground. It's a toy! When she was an energetic, confident, bouncing bundle of joy. To when she was a slower, less bouncy (but she still wanted to!) wise gentle lady. She was always there for me. My Baby girl and my friend.
I love to picture her feeling good and running~BOUNCING~again, while she chases her pal Skippy around in Heaven, and meets my beloved Sadie who left way too soon.
I was very blessed to have Shadow in my life for 14 years.
I love you Shao Shao.
cindyls made a beautiful poster in memory of Shad.
Thanks Cindy.
~Shadow~
Always by my side.
in the shadow,
in the light.