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so Laura Jane is engaged. and I'm so excited for her.
she asked me to be her wedding photographer. and this doesn't please me nearly as much. not only have I never done anything like a wedding. I've never done anything that wasn't for fun. nothing important like my best friends wedding. what if I mess it up?
another reason this doesn't thrill me is because well... I'm not a brides maid. I mean 13 years is a long time to be close friends and it's not that I'm not a bridesmaid as much as I'm not included. I want to plan parties for her. and be able to go to all her showers. I know it's selfish as it's not my wedding but I want to be in some of the pictures. not just taking them. I want to be able to celebrate her day with her. not be worrying about taking crappy pictures that she's gonna hate later on. I'm not a photographer. I mess around with a camera sometimes. that's it. why am I so upset when I should be super happy?
she asked me to be her wedding photographer. and this doesn't please me nearly as much. not only have I never done anything like a wedding. I've never done anything that wasn't for fun. nothing important like my best friends wedding. what if I mess it up?
another reason this doesn't thrill me is because well... I'm not a brides maid. I mean 13 years is a long time to be close friends and it's not that I'm not a bridesmaid as much as I'm not included. I want to plan parties for her. and be able to go to all her showers. I know it's selfish as it's not my wedding but I want to be in some of the pictures. not just taking them. I want to be able to celebrate her day with her. not be worrying about taking crappy pictures that she's gonna hate later on. I'm not a photographer. I mess around with a camera sometimes. that's it. why am I so upset when I should be super happy?