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Ok so I got my negatives back. They're overexposed. This means a re shoot.
Fuck.
I was so bummed in class today when he told me they were unacceptable. No seriously, so upset. I'm the only person in my class that has had no otherwise formal photography education. So I know the least of anything than everyone there. I guess that effects my confidence a little. But suffice it to say, at the end of class I catch up to everyone for that day. What bothers me is how confused I am by apertures and shutter speeds. I'm also the kind of person that just has to be the best at the things I love.
It's all a competition for me.
I don't know how I think that it could be. Art is someone's perspective, isn't it? You might think it sucks, but someone else might love it? I hate my work. And that I have to do it over, I hate more.
Whatareyagonnado?
Last night I saw Boys Night Out. Eh, I'm not crazy about them. And I'm not glad I went. (That's sort of a lie, bc I love the people I was there with.) It just reminded me of how my shyness is my weakness and why I never meet people. Even though someone's body language is most definetly giving the "I'm in to you" impression, I can't bring myself to "make the first move". And I guess neither could he. I've dwelled on this for too long, it's pathetic.
In all honesty though, this particular guy it was probably for the better. Haha. Yea, I'm gonna shut up now. I'm sounding to much like a fucking desperate girl.
Fuck.
I was so bummed in class today when he told me they were unacceptable. No seriously, so upset. I'm the only person in my class that has had no otherwise formal photography education. So I know the least of anything than everyone there. I guess that effects my confidence a little. But suffice it to say, at the end of class I catch up to everyone for that day. What bothers me is how confused I am by apertures and shutter speeds. I'm also the kind of person that just has to be the best at the things I love.
It's all a competition for me.
I don't know how I think that it could be. Art is someone's perspective, isn't it? You might think it sucks, but someone else might love it? I hate my work. And that I have to do it over, I hate more.
Whatareyagonnado?
Last night I saw Boys Night Out. Eh, I'm not crazy about them. And I'm not glad I went. (That's sort of a lie, bc I love the people I was there with.) It just reminded me of how my shyness is my weakness and why I never meet people. Even though someone's body language is most definetly giving the "I'm in to you" impression, I can't bring myself to "make the first move". And I guess neither could he. I've dwelled on this for too long, it's pathetic.
In all honesty though, this particular guy it was probably for the better. Haha. Yea, I'm gonna shut up now. I'm sounding to much like a fucking desperate girl.