Wow...
I totally forgot about this thing.
Been busy. Sort of.
Okay, not really this time. There's been the occasional excitement, but more than anything i've just kind of been avoiding everything. It was brought to my attention lately that I haven't quite been myself.
Is that really the case? I don't know. Maybe this is just how I am now. I'm really tired all the time. Stressed out like crazy. Annoyed with everything.
A couple weeks ago I was in the hospital. I had an ear infection, that cause my eardrum to "slightly tear." Slight enough just to knock out a significant amount of my hearing in my left ear. Everything goes from muffled, to shrill and painful, without warning. I think that hasn't helped my mood.
Then last night scared the shit out of me. Steve took a dive when we were leaving the bar, hit his head, and had a seizure.
Wasn't a good time at all. He's good though, just really bothered me to see something like that.
See, I swear i'm not that heartless.
The past few months have just been really fucked up. I think I see things starting to become normal again, but I really can't tell. Everything seems just out of arms reach, and it's just becoming exhausting.
There's just a bunch of things that need to be done in a short amount of time. I don't have money or energy to really go out much, hence some people don't really see me anymore.
Going to Germany with Rachel end of March. Gonna meet conor and the Lindsey out there and just relax for a bit hopefully.
Plus seeing NIN in Berlin the day before my birthday will be spectacular.
I really like the drums on the Walkmen's Everyone Who Pretended To Like Me Is Gone. They way they are recorded, almost has this in-studio Garage Band quality about it. Everything else on the record sounds produced, and fully mixed. Just the drums sound almost like they don't belong. It's an interesting effect. I noticed it recently. It's just some kind of style they have.
I guess you'd have to hear it to understand what I mean, even then you probably wouldn't so what's the sense in trailing off any further?
I need to quit smoking. I stopped drinking 5 times a week. Only really go out once a week now. I have a beer or two on my league night, the rest is reserved for Saturdays. Sometimes when I go out on Friday to bowl with John and them. I wanna lose some weight. Get into slightly better shape.
My job seems to be getting better, over time. More opprotunities, more money. That's really all I need right now. I don't see Rachel a lot these days, but it's okay really. Gives me the time I need to myself anyway. Not that I need time away from her or anything like that, but I like the idea of havin a couple days a week to just be lazy and play video games, or whatever it is i do with my time.
I've just been in a "funk."
Anyway, i'm gonna go.
I'll probably update again in a month or so.
Been busy. Sort of.
Okay, not really this time. There's been the occasional excitement, but more than anything i've just kind of been avoiding everything. It was brought to my attention lately that I haven't quite been myself.
Is that really the case? I don't know. Maybe this is just how I am now. I'm really tired all the time. Stressed out like crazy. Annoyed with everything.
A couple weeks ago I was in the hospital. I had an ear infection, that cause my eardrum to "slightly tear." Slight enough just to knock out a significant amount of my hearing in my left ear. Everything goes from muffled, to shrill and painful, without warning. I think that hasn't helped my mood.
Then last night scared the shit out of me. Steve took a dive when we were leaving the bar, hit his head, and had a seizure.
Wasn't a good time at all. He's good though, just really bothered me to see something like that.
See, I swear i'm not that heartless.
The past few months have just been really fucked up. I think I see things starting to become normal again, but I really can't tell. Everything seems just out of arms reach, and it's just becoming exhausting.
There's just a bunch of things that need to be done in a short amount of time. I don't have money or energy to really go out much, hence some people don't really see me anymore.
Going to Germany with Rachel end of March. Gonna meet conor and the Lindsey out there and just relax for a bit hopefully.
Plus seeing NIN in Berlin the day before my birthday will be spectacular.
I really like the drums on the Walkmen's Everyone Who Pretended To Like Me Is Gone. They way they are recorded, almost has this in-studio Garage Band quality about it. Everything else on the record sounds produced, and fully mixed. Just the drums sound almost like they don't belong. It's an interesting effect. I noticed it recently. It's just some kind of style they have.
I guess you'd have to hear it to understand what I mean, even then you probably wouldn't so what's the sense in trailing off any further?
I need to quit smoking. I stopped drinking 5 times a week. Only really go out once a week now. I have a beer or two on my league night, the rest is reserved for Saturdays. Sometimes when I go out on Friday to bowl with John and them. I wanna lose some weight. Get into slightly better shape.
My job seems to be getting better, over time. More opprotunities, more money. That's really all I need right now. I don't see Rachel a lot these days, but it's okay really. Gives me the time I need to myself anyway. Not that I need time away from her or anything like that, but I like the idea of havin a couple days a week to just be lazy and play video games, or whatever it is i do with my time.
I've just been in a "funk."
Anyway, i'm gonna go.
I'll probably update again in a month or so.