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Time to revisit the old. Now that I have no one to talk to on this thing God it's Me and you. I probally wont do this alot but I think it helps sometimes.
God I don't know what to do sometimes all I know is that I want you but after that its just a state of confusion. I am hungry for a relationship but I know that it is so not close to time yet but there is still a part of me that is hungry for it. I want to feel wanted.
It's so stupid because I shoud be able to find that in you alone to find every desire I have be in you. but its so hard at times God. I know you have called me to something and I will not allow that calling to be compromised. I will not allow the want for other things to replace that.
Help me to live a Live worthy of my call. I know I fall I know I mess up but God I will always return and I commit to having the messups be my constant awareness to how desperatly I need you. I want to live for you I want to surrvive but not just to surrive but to also thrive. I can't just have the ordinary. I need something bigger more of you God