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update!!!
i spoke to soon i think........once again.
things with clayton have been great the last couple weeks, i've been talking to him everyday, and he even has come to topeka to visit me. as well as me going to lawrence and staying the night....
but it is happening once again.
he isn't calling, or texting or anything. and i think once again i'm being forgotten. i know he is talking to her, and seeing her. which to tell you the truth, i don't really have much of a problem with. she was a big part of his life, they "loved" each other and they were together for quite a bit.
what bugs me is that i feel like i've been used, once again. that i'm being totally ignored, and that he will stop talking to me. it went from monday where he was staying up to talk to me and i was driving to lawrence to see him, to tuesday when we talked for 10 min and then today, and yesterday when we didn't talk. i'm sooo used to him calling me, just to "shoot the shit" ha, and now i'm getting nothing. and if i do try to talk to him, text him as i did earlier, it's short and sweet.
he appologized for not talking to me a lot lately. but didn't say anything about what has been going on with him. and i know it might be weird, but is it to much to want to know the truth? i don't care, i just don't want him to stop talking to me ONCE AGAIN.
and before i even knew that they watched a movie together last night, i knew something was weird. and i said it, ask janelle. why do i always see these things coming, even if i don't know what is going on?
so weird!! i am always able to sense when things are changing.
but i'm not losing hope in anything between us. or should i? why does it feel like i am the rebound, or just the filler b/c no one is there? even after all he told me? and all the times he wanted to make sure that when things would come together between us, it wouldn't be a rebound....
all these damn questions.
i need to talk to him.
in person.........b/c i hate talking on the phone, and even though it would be easier online, this needs to be in person.
damn, i just wanted to punch someone when i found out.......and realized.
i'm getting to attached.
i spoke to soon i think........once again.
things with clayton have been great the last couple weeks, i've been talking to him everyday, and he even has come to topeka to visit me. as well as me going to lawrence and staying the night....
but it is happening once again.
he isn't calling, or texting or anything. and i think once again i'm being forgotten. i know he is talking to her, and seeing her. which to tell you the truth, i don't really have much of a problem with. she was a big part of his life, they "loved" each other and they were together for quite a bit.
what bugs me is that i feel like i've been used, once again. that i'm being totally ignored, and that he will stop talking to me. it went from monday where he was staying up to talk to me and i was driving to lawrence to see him, to tuesday when we talked for 10 min and then today, and yesterday when we didn't talk. i'm sooo used to him calling me, just to "shoot the shit" ha, and now i'm getting nothing. and if i do try to talk to him, text him as i did earlier, it's short and sweet.
he appologized for not talking to me a lot lately. but didn't say anything about what has been going on with him. and i know it might be weird, but is it to much to want to know the truth? i don't care, i just don't want him to stop talking to me ONCE AGAIN.
and before i even knew that they watched a movie together last night, i knew something was weird. and i said it, ask janelle. why do i always see these things coming, even if i don't know what is going on?
so weird!! i am always able to sense when things are changing.
but i'm not losing hope in anything between us. or should i? why does it feel like i am the rebound, or just the filler b/c no one is there? even after all he told me? and all the times he wanted to make sure that when things would come together between us, it wouldn't be a rebound....
all these damn questions.
i need to talk to him.
in person.........b/c i hate talking on the phone, and even though it would be easier online, this needs to be in person.
damn, i just wanted to punch someone when i found out.......and realized.
i'm getting to attached.