Ok, I finally did it.
So I went to a doctor today to check up on my back problem. Everything seems to be going well in that department. But we also talked about something else which I've been avoiding talking to doctors about for a LONG TIME: My hormonal balances. My PMS symptoms as well as my actual periods have always been REALLY extreme as well as like, chronic mood instability normally. She suggested that I come in to have some routine blood work done just to "check". We will also be checking my cholesterol and blood sugar levels just to get a healthy base-line reading in now that I'm 25 and it's good to have those things on record as a young adult. The hormone thing makes me nervous though. My other family doctor when I was younger said that he thought I could be imbalanced somewhere since most women may have really bad menstrual symptoms at various points in puberty but most of the extreme ones dissipate with maturity. And I know that if something really is going on I'll just have to take a pill and go on with my life, and it might even make me feel better. The thing I guess is that I don't like the idea of having to be reliant on a pill to increase my quality of life. I've always kinda known that I should probably have this looked into but I never really had the guts to say it to any doctor because some of it relates to my behavior and I guess I just didn't want to feel scrutinized.
*EDIT*
I realize that I'm an emotional person in general that I am moody by nature, and in no way am I trying to silence or stifle fundamental parts of my personality by altering my hormones and stuff. I can just kinda feel at certain times of the month that I'm way farther out of whack than I think I should be and it doesn't seem like my symptoms are the norm for most women.
Anyway, some people coming over to play poker here in a little bit. Small group but it should be fun. Tomorrow I'm going to a dinner party at my bosses house and bringing my white bean dip. Should be a good time. I was hoping that Jake could make it but he can't because some other waiter fucked up and has had his shifts revoked for the weekend, so now Jake has to pick up the slack. I think he's getting really burned out from all this running around constantly at work. Every time he gets ready to go in his mood completely shifts and he always comes home exhausted, frustrated, and immediately has a drink :( I love him and I want him to be happier than that. Although he does have an interview with a catering service for sales director on Weds. *fingers crossed*
That's all for now.
*EDIT*
I realize that I'm an emotional person in general that I am moody by nature, and in no way am I trying to silence or stifle fundamental parts of my personality by altering my hormones and stuff. I can just kinda feel at certain times of the month that I'm way farther out of whack than I think I should be and it doesn't seem like my symptoms are the norm for most women.
Anyway, some people coming over to play poker here in a little bit. Small group but it should be fun. Tomorrow I'm going to a dinner party at my bosses house and bringing my white bean dip. Should be a good time. I was hoping that Jake could make it but he can't because some other waiter fucked up and has had his shifts revoked for the weekend, so now Jake has to pick up the slack. I think he's getting really burned out from all this running around constantly at work. Every time he gets ready to go in his mood completely shifts and he always comes home exhausted, frustrated, and immediately has a drink :( I love him and I want him to be happier than that. Although he does have an interview with a catering service for sales director on Weds. *fingers crossed*
That's all for now.