May 14, 2007 15:29
as long as i still feel something, it's not over, and believe me, sometime's i wish it was, but it's not. i can feel it
a lot of people walk in and out of my life, but youre one of the only people i ever really wanted to stick around
because life, much like a french movie, rarely makes any sense, but when its right, its right, and you dont question it, you dont think, you dont ponder, you just exist
It's like you get this picture in your head of the way things should be, and you end up closing yourself off to some of the wonder and serendipity of the actual experience
That guy didn't know you, because if he did..he would have never walked away from you
But that's just it, the butterflies never seem to accompany the right people. All the nice guys who are right for you, they never make your stomach go flip flop...
Sometimes the hardest things to say are the things that really matter
I think sometimes you have to lose someone completely before you can figure out what they really mean to you
the truth is in time thats all we'll be to each other anyway, a population of memories, some wonderful and endearing, some less so, but taken together, these memories help make us who we are and who we will be
so yeah maybe we didnt talk this summer, and who knows maybe we'll find ourselves talking less and less as time goes on and life gets more and more in the way, but, i dont feel it, cause youre with me everywhere i go
Dreams aren't perfect. They come true, not free.
I like that you ramble when you're nervous, I like that I know that you ramble when you're nervous, and I like that I still make you nervous.
And then theres love. I want you to love to the tips of your fingers and when you find that love, wherever you find it, whoever you choose, don't run away from it. But you don't have to chase it either. You just be patient and it will come to you, I promise and when you least it expect it, like you, like spending the best year of my life with the sweetest and smartest and the most beautiful baby in the world. You don't be afraid sweetheart and remeber to love is to live
What we have goes beyond friendship, beyond lovers -- its forever.
I mean, you -- me, we're exactly the way we've always been and I am so tired of it.
Have faith that things will work out for the best..that whatever sent us off in
different directions is the very same thing that will bring us back together.
your whole life is about to change in a way that it will never be the same again, your opening a new chapter, and you have to give a proper goodbye to the old one, you dont want to miss these moments, even the sad ones, because you'll never get them back again, so enjoy this time, let it wash over you so that your memories of it are strong
If you felt even one shred of what I feel for you, we wouldn't be standing here having this conversation.
We talk like we know what's going on, but we don't. We don't know anything. We're really young and we're gonna screw-up a lot. We're gonna keep changing our minds and even sometimes our hearts. And through all that, the only real thing we can offer each other is forgiveness
well guess what? it is, so sucks for you, huh? or maybe it doesn't. maybe you’re gonna get off easy after all, its only my heart that's gonna get even the slightest bit broken.
At a certain point, the whole thing just becomes too much to process, and your brain gets taken out of the loop, and all you have to rely on is your heart, your natural human instincts. It's liberating... not at first of course, at first it's terrifying, like falling... but that's the point, isn't it?
I called because I wanted you to know that despite everything that's happened and all the miles between us right now, I still think about the way it was in the beginning
Maybe I was trying too hard, but I didn't want to miss my chance to dance with you, to hold you, to make you remember what it's like between us. I thought if only I could make tonight perfect…
Quick and easy answer would be that I was really, really busy and there just wasn't any time. Which is true, but... it's not really it, because I thought about you all the time, and about what you said about how everything would just kind of work itself out between us and it just... made me feel so good about us. I just...well, I guess I didn't want to ruin that feeling. Does that make any sense?
Well, he's playing a little hard to get, which is somewhat disconcerting, but no worries. He'll be mine
Every time I'm supposed to come see him I trick myself into thinking that it's gonna be different this time. But it never is. It's always just different shades of the same.
i wasnt fighting with you, i was fighting with myself, because part of me wanted to send you running away and part of me just wanted to hold you tight
What you think you're leaving behind here, it's just going to be that much bigger when you return.
Joey: You were wanting to kiss me all night?
Pacey: Yes.
Joey: Even when you were yelling at me.
Pacey: Especially when I was yelling at you.
Joey: So... is this... some sort of... recent new development in your life?
Pacey: Wanting to kiss you? No. It's sort of always there... like...white noise, or... the secret service or the threat of nuclear war, for that matter. Just somethin' you get used to.
The way I feel about him is totally separate from the way I feel about you and about our friendship
You want him. You want him like I want you. You love him like I love you. Only the difference is he loves you back the same way
as complicated as our friendship was, it doesn't even compare to how complicated whatever you and I have here is bound to be. And never in my life has taking the easy way out seemed like exactly what I need to do
I place this unfair burden on people just so they can save me from myself. But I don't need a knight in shining armor. I need a partner. Someone who I am proud to love, who is proud to love me back, in spite of all my flaws. And you're it. You're the one.
And it's great to have somebody that you know so well that you don't even have to verbalize what you're thinking most of the time. The other person just gets it, picks up on it. And -- and it -- it's like that with Joey and me. It's great, and I -- and I like it, but it's -- it's not love
If I'm thanking you for anything... it's for being yourself. It's for not caring what anybody else thinks. It's for knowing in your own heart what's wrong and what's right. And it's for being there this year... when I needed you most
We all have our moments. You know what? Don't stop hoping that things will be different with him. You're way too young to be so bitter.
Before we destroy whatever chance we might actually have at having a relationship, I'm asking you, please stop and think about this, is this really what you want? Is this really the way you want things to end between us?
What is this feeling? It just seems like everything is getting smaller and smaller. It's all still there, but I can't touch it. I think it's called goodbye.
I sat there looking at this incredible reflection of who you are, and I realized that I absolutely hate it when you're not around. I wanted to thank you, I wanted to hold your hand, I wanted to kiss you, but you weren't there
But then I think about everything that kiss brought into my life. What it was like to look at you and know not just what you were thinking, but also what you were feeling because I was feeling the same thing, and then it's worth it. It's..worth all the pain that I'm going through. I want to regret kissing you, Joey, but I can't. It was the smartest decision I ever made.
I mean, the first time I fell was for my friend, the boy I grew up with, the boy across the creek, and the second time was after we kissed. I mean, you became this whole new person to me and....I fell in love all over again.
I'm afraid because you're the single-most, important being to ever grace my existance. and I am falling hopelessly in love with you
That first kiss, it's the passionate one... the one filled by desire and attraction and all that but, the second kiss is rational- you got time to think about it, worry, and over analyze... most women pick the first kiss, but I'm partial to the 2nd one, cause it's about something more