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I guess they're not kidding when they call it the sophomore slump.
I can't hate it enough to be emo and I can't love it enough to be a freshman. It's just one washed-out yellow day after another.
I feel inadequate. I'm overwhelmed by this feeling of complete mediocrity. What's worse that I can't bring myself to care. Last year, I sometimes felt as though I would drown in the work and that I just had too much on my mind - but I felt challenged. When I got a bad grade - and my grades right now aren't bad yet, just not good - I knew that I could rise to the occasion if I really tried. I was excited about school and my courses. I was willing to put in the effort.
This year I just - can't. I don't have the energy. I don't even have the energy to be upset that I don't have the energy.
I can't hate it enough to be emo and I can't love it enough to be a freshman. It's just one washed-out yellow day after another.
I feel inadequate. I'm overwhelmed by this feeling of complete mediocrity. What's worse that I can't bring myself to care. Last year, I sometimes felt as though I would drown in the work and that I just had too much on my mind - but I felt challenged. When I got a bad grade - and my grades right now aren't bad yet, just not good - I knew that I could rise to the occasion if I really tried. I was excited about school and my courses. I was willing to put in the effort.
This year I just - can't. I don't have the energy. I don't even have the energy to be upset that I don't have the energy.