Grrrrr.
I have in the past, tried really hard to be happy.
Certain things help with this, like going to concerts.
So you can imagine I psyche myself up for going to a concert right? Well I do, and I was really happy afterwards. So now that the friend that I went with keeps going on about how much she hated the concert, it's making me feel worse than I did before I went.
And yet she's the one who feels hard done by because she didn't enjoy herself!!! She doesn't seem to grasp the fact that everytime she rips apart this concert that I'm crumbling inside. She doesn't notice that this concert is the one thing during the year that makes me happy. She doesn't notice that she's making me feel the exact same way she is, and I liked the bloody concert!
But I can't tell her she's being a miserable sod that needs to buck up her ideas because she's bringing down all her friends around her because it will just make her worse!
I had an incident with this same friend last year that I haven't forgotten about because to me it was unforgivable, but I chose to try and forget about it because I tend to push my friends away at the best of times, but she really ruined the whole experience for the rest of us and she has no idea it's all her fault.
One of our mutual friends actually came up to me afterwards and said to me "Can I sleep in your room, she's depressing me".
What kind of way is that to; a) live, b) treat your friends?
Another thing is that she has a front row ticket to another concert and deep down she doens't want to go but she is for another friend. I have spent a week with this girl trying not to kill myself listening to her drone on and on - I have earned that ticket. But she will go and be front row, have a bad time and ruin it again for me. There's nothing worse than not getting a front row ticket that you would gladly give your right arm for, then have to watch someone use that ticket and not enjoy it.
I don't know what I'm going to do about this friend, but I can't forget. Not this time.
Certain things help with this, like going to concerts.
So you can imagine I psyche myself up for going to a concert right? Well I do, and I was really happy afterwards. So now that the friend that I went with keeps going on about how much she hated the concert, it's making me feel worse than I did before I went.
And yet she's the one who feels hard done by because she didn't enjoy herself!!! She doesn't seem to grasp the fact that everytime she rips apart this concert that I'm crumbling inside. She doesn't notice that this concert is the one thing during the year that makes me happy. She doesn't notice that she's making me feel the exact same way she is, and I liked the bloody concert!
But I can't tell her she's being a miserable sod that needs to buck up her ideas because she's bringing down all her friends around her because it will just make her worse!
I had an incident with this same friend last year that I haven't forgotten about because to me it was unforgivable, but I chose to try and forget about it because I tend to push my friends away at the best of times, but she really ruined the whole experience for the rest of us and she has no idea it's all her fault.
One of our mutual friends actually came up to me afterwards and said to me "Can I sleep in your room, she's depressing me".
What kind of way is that to; a) live, b) treat your friends?
Another thing is that she has a front row ticket to another concert and deep down she doens't want to go but she is for another friend. I have spent a week with this girl trying not to kill myself listening to her drone on and on - I have earned that ticket. But she will go and be front row, have a bad time and ruin it again for me. There's nothing worse than not getting a front row ticket that you would gladly give your right arm for, then have to watch someone use that ticket and not enjoy it.
I don't know what I'm going to do about this friend, but I can't forget. Not this time.