So my day sucked
All right, since i had a shitty day, i'm going to make some stuff clear so that it never happens again. i spent a lot of the day yesterday feeling like shit. i ended up lying to chris and going behind his back--not purposely--and i met mike and had coffee for an hour. i had told chris that mike was out of my life because we had returned everything to each other and i had told mike i was seeing someone else. i would think that would have been clear, but i guess it wasn't so let me restate that...i am very happy and in love right now with chris. mike, you had your opportunity and you blew it. you did not fight for me and you did not fight for us. when we broke up you seemed fine with it. it was a very simple breakup and we parted ways 5 minutes later. i'm sorry i had to leave all my shit there but i didn't have a place to live, i had a place to stay. when given the altimatum him or me with out pausing i chose chris. if we don't work out then fine, but i'm not going to have someone else ruin it for me. you are not worth messing up my relationship with chris. i'm sorry that it had to come to this but please don't text me or call me. it is hurting a lot of people including myself. i hurt someone yesterday for my own selfish reasons and i will not do that again. so if you call or text me then i am going to have to tell you then too. i did not want to name names. i did not want to hurt anyone. i try my hardest not to hurt anyone and i ended up hurting two other people and myself yesterday. and amanda probably did not get much sleep last night either...sorry. and am pissed and hurt writing this. i don't want to hurt anymore. i want to be happy. and i am happy with chris. so please stop.