May 22, 2005 10:47
last night was sapose to be fun.. no ..
almost got my ass beat...
.. kept backing up..
.. i even thought about driving my car right off that cliff...
..i waited to cry alone so mark wouldn't have to see that side...
..i destroyed my room and was gonna drive to tennesse..
...i thought it was gonna shoot me in the head and say it never wanted me anyway..
...i figured last night was my last..
...i was wishing it would get it over with...
..i hope mark understands...
...i thought i was going to die...
..he hasn't began to see what my life's like..