I just wanna believe

[awakethesilence]

---i don't know if it will work---
---i can't be myself---
---i hate that---
---i thought i'd be happy---
---im not---
---im still sad---
---its still there---
---hands over ears---
---louder, louder---
---please leave---
---aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh---
---IM GOING FUCKING CRAZY---
---WHY CAN'T I HAVE NORMAL THOUGHTS---
---if it makes you less sad---
---i'll have a brand new day---
---in a life that you hate---
---im glad you can forget---