Quilting Squares
It will be good to be married to him.
Today I woke up to laundry and a room I no longer wish to clean. There are bags upon bags of wedding decorations piled behind my wardrobe to keep Luke away. I understand that soon-very soon-I will be the "mistress" of an entire home (!!!) and that means that all of these things in here must be boxed and moved a lot sooner than I'd like to begin dealing with. There are so many things to take care of before November 11th.
I want to purchase Luke a toddler bed before then, as well. There is a cute one at Babies 'R Us that also had a small bedside table with storage for only $199.00. I think it's important for Luke's transition to be one of comfort but also special newness. Perhaps we can ease him into a toddler bed while he still sleeps at night in his baby crib? We'll see. There is also that whole potty training era we are entering...
Today we have a florist appointment. I'm pretty interested in that sort of thing so this should be fun for me. I think Luke will play around with M while I sort through the various options and pricing.
The invitations have been sent. That's kind of a big thing, too. I guess I could be dwelling on the finality of it all...hehe...like the fact that there is no turning back now unless we wanted to really embarass ourselves and renege on the whole thing. No, if not for my own self, I will not shame my family! haha. Seriously, I have longstanding fears of containment or being controlled, so, without the Holy Spirit's work, I would naturally be terrified of this whole process. I have been really blessed by Matt's steadiness and strength. We have been attending a premarital Bible Fellowship class at church. As of late, we have been talking about "leaving", as in the first part of the old adage, to "leave and cleave". It has been super informative, not to mention encouraging. We have, more than once, discussed what a sense of solidarity we glean from the other faces and names in the class room with us, some older, most our age or younger. What a long standing rite is this thing called marriage! Certainly many before and, God willing, many after us will join hands and marry. We are in good company.
Can I brag about my betrothed really quick? He is not only undoubtedly handsome, and passionate, but loving and true. He is wise and careful with his words and sentiments. I am so pleased with him, this most capable father and husband-to-be. I love this man more than I can express and I want to share all of life with him. There is no one else I want by my side.
He told me yesterday that he felt as if before me, he was a very thin personality...good thoughts and dreams but just more one-dimensional. I totally agree. I responded that I felt I was running on three wheels with Luke...that I knew what was true and how he needed to be raised and had correct opinions about the world and our God, but, was just lacking the richness...the FULLness I enjoy now. Praise God...it is for His glory.
I remember the "others" in my past not painfully, except to say that I wish I hadn't wasted so much of my MIND, amongst other things, on these lesser relationships (not lesser people, though many of those personalities had been, shall we say, lacking). I look back at my early twenties and gasp in utter horror at how close I was to making the worst choice in marriage. Again, praise God for immediate pain to save me from lifelong agony! I know Matt is in agreement with me here. So, we forgive. We forgive each other for our very sinful nature inherent in all humans as well as the "others" in our history books. God speed and best wishes to you all...He will hold you.
And I look forward now to new writings and a new house with no old tracks in it...to new laughter and no old ghosts revisiting. It is such a time of color and warmth and quilts and pumpkin-spiced everything. I never knew I could be such a homebody...
I'm so glad we are marrying in the autumn! November 11th cannot get here fast enough!
Today I woke up to laundry and a room I no longer wish to clean. There are bags upon bags of wedding decorations piled behind my wardrobe to keep Luke away. I understand that soon-very soon-I will be the "mistress" of an entire home (!!!) and that means that all of these things in here must be boxed and moved a lot sooner than I'd like to begin dealing with. There are so many things to take care of before November 11th.
I want to purchase Luke a toddler bed before then, as well. There is a cute one at Babies 'R Us that also had a small bedside table with storage for only $199.00. I think it's important for Luke's transition to be one of comfort but also special newness. Perhaps we can ease him into a toddler bed while he still sleeps at night in his baby crib? We'll see. There is also that whole potty training era we are entering...
Today we have a florist appointment. I'm pretty interested in that sort of thing so this should be fun for me. I think Luke will play around with M while I sort through the various options and pricing.
The invitations have been sent. That's kind of a big thing, too. I guess I could be dwelling on the finality of it all...hehe...like the fact that there is no turning back now unless we wanted to really embarass ourselves and renege on the whole thing. No, if not for my own self, I will not shame my family! haha. Seriously, I have longstanding fears of containment or being controlled, so, without the Holy Spirit's work, I would naturally be terrified of this whole process. I have been really blessed by Matt's steadiness and strength. We have been attending a premarital Bible Fellowship class at church. As of late, we have been talking about "leaving", as in the first part of the old adage, to "leave and cleave". It has been super informative, not to mention encouraging. We have, more than once, discussed what a sense of solidarity we glean from the other faces and names in the class room with us, some older, most our age or younger. What a long standing rite is this thing called marriage! Certainly many before and, God willing, many after us will join hands and marry. We are in good company.
Can I brag about my betrothed really quick? He is not only undoubtedly handsome, and passionate, but loving and true. He is wise and careful with his words and sentiments. I am so pleased with him, this most capable father and husband-to-be. I love this man more than I can express and I want to share all of life with him. There is no one else I want by my side.
He told me yesterday that he felt as if before me, he was a very thin personality...good thoughts and dreams but just more one-dimensional. I totally agree. I responded that I felt I was running on three wheels with Luke...that I knew what was true and how he needed to be raised and had correct opinions about the world and our God, but, was just lacking the richness...the FULLness I enjoy now. Praise God...it is for His glory.
I remember the "others" in my past not painfully, except to say that I wish I hadn't wasted so much of my MIND, amongst other things, on these lesser relationships (not lesser people, though many of those personalities had been, shall we say, lacking). I look back at my early twenties and gasp in utter horror at how close I was to making the worst choice in marriage. Again, praise God for immediate pain to save me from lifelong agony! I know Matt is in agreement with me here. So, we forgive. We forgive each other for our very sinful nature inherent in all humans as well as the "others" in our history books. God speed and best wishes to you all...He will hold you.
And I look forward now to new writings and a new house with no old tracks in it...to new laughter and no old ghosts revisiting. It is such a time of color and warmth and quilts and pumpkin-spiced everything. I never knew I could be such a homebody...
I'm so glad we are marrying in the autumn! November 11th cannot get here fast enough!